"i honestly don't care that the babies is Blake's , but Hakeem will" tianna says "i dont care what hakeem thinks honestly. He's had a really bad drinking problem lately." I say "I know. Hes comes around me drunk a lot." I pick up a bottle of liqor that happen had left and started talking "im has been, I'm a drunk. I yell at Diana just cuz i wanna" i pretend to drink and act drunk tianna does the stop face and stops laughing she points behind me I turn around to see Hakeem "is that what you think of me?" Hakeem says "no baby no." I say tianna leaves out "my music is everything to me, and that bastard blasted me, I lost a lung and I'm coughing up blood every time I wanna rap. I am always walking hard and trying my best, and i love you! But you go get pregnant by blake! You don't know how hard it is to be me!" Hakeem says "I don't?" I ask "no!" Hakeem answers "I don't?" I reapeted "No!" He yelled "all my life I fought, I bulldozed to get what i needed! I'm a Dubois yes. My dad had money, but he didn't care about me! School ended at 4:00 pm, he didnt come get me until 8:00 am. A hour before school opened. I have been abused plenty of times! More than a girl should! My mother! Ooh! Don't let me start on her! She never showed up for anything! Just left. My dad. Every event i had for gymanstics, cheerleading, ballet, school, every recital, every play. He missed, I was the last kid left waiting for my parents. I never had anyone that cared about me. And Nana. That woman. Shes crazy! No wonder shes locked up. She beat the crap out of me everyday. And my dad didnt say anything! I didn't have a mother because she walked out and tried to kill me. So don't ever.. Say I.. Haven't struggled." I was crying extremely hard but I looked serious and angry, not sad. "Stuggles? You want to talk about struggles? My mom didn't get to watch me grow up because luscious sent her away from me for 17 years. 17 years Diana. I was poor, working hard for what I want to achieve, dad was out making runs and Me Mal and Dre. We rasised ourselves basically, I was shot and bled so bad I lost a lung, coughing up blood doing something I love for the people I love. I was mad so yes I did start drinking, smoking and carrying guns, I carry a him not to be a gangster. But if I get shot agian. I might not make it out so well." He says "i could have fixed you with your lung still in you." I say "how?" He says "i'm a surgeon. Remember?" I say "oh so now you tell me, so you let them do that to me?" Hakeem asks "No. I was on a plane, if they would have waited for me your dumb ass would be dead. Don't blame me for all your mistakes, your mad I got pregnant by blake but you got tianna pregnant with Prince and your an asshole! I swaer the world does not revolve around Hakeem Lyon! Care about someone else other than yourself for once!" I went upstairs to the master bedroom to take a shower, Hakeem walked up and grabbed my butt "Hakeem stop it." He kisses my shoulder, my neck, behind my ear "Hakeem. Stop." I moaned he lifted up my shirt and started to feel all over my top half "Hakeem." I couldn't take it anymore we walked over to the bed I look at the clock, it's 4:00 pm
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I swear that if I wasn't pregnant, I probably would have gotten pregnant the way he did things when we were done I looked back at the clock it's 9:00 pm. Last time I checked it the time was 4:00 pm. Wow. 5 hours. I rolled over to see Hakeem putting his pants back on, I was under the blanket, still undressed, I git dressed before cookie came the doorbell rang and I went to get it, it was cookie, good thing she didn't come early I she would have cought is in the act 😌😌
