Don't leave me ALONE

Chapter 12

Kai pov:

What have I done!!!! I just committed rape... somewhat no I did he didn't consent occasionally I'm so dumb I was supposed to be there for him not force him to give me blow jobs I was suppose to help him be his friend now he probably thinks I'm a rapist

While I was thinking I'm snapped out of my thoughts by Jesse "yo those blow jobs were horrible thought they were suppose to be good" I shot him a death glare and say " he could tell dumbass I don't know why I did that were rapist and could go to jail" he looked at me shocked " wth man you're getting in trouble to you did it too" I look at him and stand up and say " I'm done with all of you and I'm going to go apologize" I walked off

I can't find him anywhere!! Where could have he have gone I finally find him in the abounded building with bruises because....of me I don't even deserve his forgiveness he was crying and I just it's my fault

I suck up my pride and talk to him " Michael" he looked up with fear because of me  he says "pl -please leave" I look at him and try to apologize " I'm so so sorry can you ever forgive me I'm sorry I can't begin what I did was wrong I'm sorry I i I'm truly sorry I don't even deserve your forgiveness" I look at him he looks at me with sadness  and says

" how could you I - I trusted you you gave me hope I thought I can finally be happy but I never get to people like me don't get that because I'm not beautiful or smart I'm just used by everyone I am nice I don't t know what I did to be so sad or broken or why people hurt me I don't like being hit or hurt but even after I tell them to stop they hurt me anyway" he yells with tears going down his face

I'm on the verge of tears im crying and trying to apologize " I'm so fucking sorry please forgive me I'm not good at this I know what I did was unforgivable I'm trying I hope you know you are beautiful and I don't know why I did that to you I said I would protect you and all I did was hurt you"

He looks at me and laughs why is he laughing?

He says " I don't know I try to hate you for what you did but I can't I just can't and I'm stupid that I still like you but dammit your I just I forgiven our but I won't forget" I'm glad but I'm so bad

" can we go to your house and cuddle" he asked and I nod and we walk to my car and the drive is silent

Hey y'all I just don't know what to do to this story but I'm trying to get it together put  in the comments what you want to read and thank you guys love you

Glexper x