I don't like this feeling anymore...
I hate feeling that hatred from others and from myself.
The fears of abandonment and judgement
The feeling of being hurt and thinking I deserve pain
The emptiness
Loneliness
Worthlessness
Self doubt
Beating myself down
Losing control
Lack of confidence
Lack of concentration
Darkness
My unjustness
The pain
I don't like going through these moods alone and not being able to control them
Sometimes I can handle it and they may or may not come all at once, but either way it hurts me and others
It's like I live in a world of black and white
I can go through this pain for life or let go
How I feel could be my end or my destruction
