banghim ✧ detained

Twelve

Jin-soo attending Himchan at work became a daily routine, as Himchan was too paranoid to leave him at home or at school. Himchan visiting Yongguk daily again also became a routine, yet it was now more than just feeding him.
Himchan became sleep deprived, worse than before. He stayed out of sight of his boss at any cost. His situation became worse, making Himchan physically and mentally exhausted.

Himchan awoken from his slight slumber. He went to the bathroom. Himchan stood in the mirror, he rubbed the dark bags under his eyes, before brushing his teeth. After stepping out of the bathroom the scent of coffee filled his senses. He walked back to his office. His eyes dropped as he struggled to not pass out. Jin-soo sat in Himchan's chair,"I'm hungry." Himchan ignored the child, as he couldn't hear. Jin-soo walked over to his half-asleep father. He tugged on Himchan's shirt slightly. Himchan looked down,"Jin-soo, what do you want?" "I'm hungry~" "Can you wait, please?" The little boy shook his head,"I'm hungry now." Himchan, too tired to argue against Jin-soo, gave in quickly. "Fine, I'll take you out in a little bit."

Himchan walked outside with Jin-soo. He opened the car door for the two of them before driving away.

Himchan opened the front door to the fast food buliding. A man in a black hoodie, his face covered by the hood and a face mask, stared at Jin-soo as he walked in. Himchan looked at the man, feeling uneaay, he put his hand on Jin-soo's shoulder and held the boy close to him.
"Jin-soo, tell the lady what you want." Himchan told his son as they reached the front of the line. "Is that all for today, sir?" "Yes..." "That'll be 1,400 won." Himchan handed her his card as he kept his eyes on the man outside, who was still eyeing Jin-soo.
The woman handed Himchan his card back and a receipt. "You're order number is 148." "Thank you."
Himchan sat at a table with Jin-soo. Himchan looked outside to see the man wasn't outside. He scanned the room with his eyes, not stopping until he realized the man was sitting at a table across from them. He held Jin-soo in his arms tighter. "Order 148." Himchan got up and took the bag before quickly returning to the table. He watched Jin-soo eat in disinterest. Himchan rested his hand on his Palm while he scroll through his phone,"Have you found Mommy yet?" Himchan looked up at Jin-soo, he put on a fake smile,"I've almost found her. She'll be back soon, okay?" Jin-soo smiled at Himchan's words. Himchan quickly looked down again, feeling guilty.
Once Jin-soo finished eating, Himchan helped him wash his hands and throw away the trash. Himchan sat back down, at this point too exhausted to stand. He looked at the man in the hoodie. His hands making unusual movements under the table. He placed the object in his bag, before standing up and leaving the bag there. A faint beeping sound was heard under all the chatter. Himchan felt his heart beat faster by second. He looked at the man who'd just walked out. The man removed his hoodie before smiling. Himchan's eyes grew wider in shock. "Yongn-" Himchan was cut off by a final loud beeping and a explosion.

Screams and cries were heard through the debris. Himchan coughed, his face covered in dust and slightly bleeding. Glass shards pierced his legs and arms. "Jin-soo!" Himchan quickly moved around, trying to find his child in the chaos. Cries of pain and help covered Himchan's screams. His crawled over the floor before feeling a body under his hands. He touched the person's face, before realizing it was Jin-soo. Himchan took his hand off of Jin-soo's face, his hand now covered in the child's blood. Himchan panicked. Ambulance sirens were heard from afar.

Eventually people were pulled out of the debris, almost everyone being taken to a hospital. Jin-soo being one of the victims in critical condition. Once Himchan was out, he rushed to his car, ignoring the pain the glass gave him or the burning in his lungs.

He ran inside the hospital, gaining stares for his dirty appearance. A woman at the front desk looked at Himchan,"Sir, is there someone you're looking for?" Himchan turned over to the woman,"Kim Jin-soo." "You are?" "Kim Himchan. His father." She stood up from her desk about to guide Himchan where to go before looking at his current state,"You're bleeding. Sir, you need to get treated." "That doesn't matter right now. Just please, where is he?" "I'm guessing you came from the buliding collapse that happened thirty minutes ago? He's in operation right now. Operation room 3." Himchan ran down the hall until he reached the room. He waited outside. A male doctor walked by,"Excuse me, are you okay?" Himchan looked at the man,"What?" "I mean I could remove the glass shards from your leg."

Himchan gritted his teeth as the glass was pulled from his leg. The doctor bandaged his leg before Himchan quickly left.

Himchan waited outside the room for hours, until the light turned off. A female doctor walked out of the double doors. She moved his gloves and washed her hands with a frustrated look on her face. She looked over at Himchan,"I'm guessing you're his father?" "Yes." The doctor avoided eye contact with Himchan out of pity,"I'm sorry..." Himchan felt like his heart stopped. His entire world stopped. He fell on his knees, his hands trembling as he laid his hand on his face is distress. "No..." "We tried everything we could. He went into hemorrhagic shock. He lost too much blood by the time he arrived at the hospital. I'm sorry."
Tears slipped through the gaps between Himchan's fingers.

Himchan stood up, a emotionless expression plastered on his face. He walked to his car. Sitting down in the silence. Himchan broke. More tears flowed down his face, than he'd ever experienced. Himchan looked at a box cutter set down in the middle compartment. He picked it up, pushing the blade out with his thumb. He slightly pushed the blade down. "I love you, Himchan." Himchan dropped the blade when he thought of Yongguk. He looked at himself in the mirror,"I'm a mess."

Himchan drove back to his house. He walked in. It was quiet. Jin-soo's toys were scattered on the floor. The mess from when Jae-eun was taken was still visible. Himchan made his way to the bathroom. He clogged the drain before turning it on. Himchan stripped his clothes. He laid in the warm water, washing the debris and blood off of his body. He washed his hair for the first time in what seemed forever. Himchan dressed in a black T-shirt and sweat pants. He walked to Jin-soo's room. A mess of clothes and toys were on the carpet. Himchan laid on the boys bed. He curled his legs up to his chest. Himchan closed his eyes, and he slept.

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