Killing me softly

The breakup

I seriously cant take this anymore ! Jake is acting like an asshole . I never loved jake . Never will , im going to break up with him .What if this is the wrong thing to do ? What if its better if i break up . Aah ! i dont know what to do . Im scared and i dont want to break his heart . I guess il have to do it . Come on ! Do it . Do it!! fine!

Jake.. I need to talk to you . "Yes " said jake with an unpleasant look on his face . What do you want? umm. Im leaving u ! Whatttt ? said jake shocked and kind of sad . Im sorryy but i cant do this . I never loved u  or had feelings for u . Im sorryy jake . He was speechless until he took the glasses and started throwing them causing a lot of noise . What is wrong with u?  I love u  ..he said . U cant just leave me like that . Then he started crashing other things and the table i was so scared . I immediatlyy headed to the room and  took a big bag and packed my things as fast as i could . "Where the fuck are you going huh" said jack from back. I ignored him and continued packing . I left . All i heard was the big slamming of the door behind me . I never bothered to look back . I left the apartment . I dont know where to head . I couldnt stop thinking about going to the mans house . Maybe i should . So i bought the tickets for the metro . And i went , kind of relieved and happy and sad at the same time . It was a wierd feeling . Damn , what would that guy think of me now . I only know that his name was adam . I dont know where else to go except for him . So i headed to the apartment he lived and i rang the bell ..until a lady came and opened the door , a young beautiful lady . I was shocked and speechlesss . Who was she? I thought . I knoww u welll !! said the lady . My name is deborah , Im adams sister . Come in! So i went in and sat . She said " adam told me all about u " with a happy face. This is my apartment u see adam just took care of it because i was out of country . Oh ! i said . So you and adam love each other? she asked . I didnt know what to say ..well does he ? Deborah replied of course he does ! He talks about u a lot to me . aw i love him i said . Debora said let me tell u something ..if your deciding to date him . Make sure you wanna do it . Beacause once you agree theres no going back . Dont think about breaking up with him. So u choose ur decision . I replied " ofcourse i love adam and i made my decision". Good replied deborah . Ummm do u mind if u give me his address? Yess of course . She wrote it down in a paper and gave it to me . I left ..she gave me  a hug then i left . She seems so sweet , im starting to like her i thought. So i left and searched his house. It was not that far from his sisters house . But this one was more huge and beautiful . Many trees covered the house . I reached for the door feeling nervous. Knock  and he opened it . He immediately kissed me and gave me a tight hug . It felt so good . I went in and he said make yourself at home. Suddenly i said "I read your book" . Wow thats nice ..did u like it? It was wonderful . I loved it . A big smile came from his face . It was the cutest smile ive ever seen . He made me coffee and we watched a movie . He made me feel so special . I never felt this way with jake . This was the best night . Then we went and slept together . It was the best . Not even a single thought about jake came to my mind . I was happy and finally i came to a deep sleep .