Hiding The Pain

Chapter 14

Kageyama's POV

I can't believe this, how has-how can he...Kami how is he still functioning? I mean, I did what research I could into those conditions and from what he's saying...I mean holy fuck.

Watching as he took in my words I can't help but feel rage. For him to be this fucking  terrified some asshat must have said and or done something. People don't typically just randomly become terrified of speaking about their conditions and especially not ones as serious as these.

"No...I-I need to say this." an unspoken plea for forgiveness escapes in his voice.

I swear; does he not realize he doesn't have to push himself so much? That we all talked about why he might have hidden this? We aren't mad, so why does he keep punishing himself?

Gently as I could manage I smack him upside the head, "Don't you dare idiot, you don't need to do anything. The only reason you should tell us is because you want to tell us and trust us to know your story."

The dumbass stared at me shocked, like he couldn't believe I just said that. Yeah, well I can't believe he's this freaking thick!! I swear if we ever find out who hurt him enough to make him like this, we'll show them why a group of crows is called a murder....

3rd POV

"I-I..Thank you, Kageyama." Hinata's smile became very small but was finally genuine. "Still, I want to tell you at least....part of it?"

Kageyama nodded, "Whenever you're ready."

"So I-um, I remember I was about six when I was having at least one black out a day. I didn't...I didn't know it wasn't right. I just thought it was normal I guess. They just-just got worse though. Lasted longer, became more frequent, became more intense....I-I didn't know-" Hinata cut himself off with a shuddering gasp.

Sugawara pulled him into his side, gently rubbing the younger's arm in soothing motions. The quiet murmurs that had begun throughout the room were swiftly silenced by Daichi. "It's okay, that's more than enough Hinata. If you want to tell us more you can tell us more anytime you wish, but please don't push yourself."

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(A/N Ok sorry this took so long, these chapters are pretty hard for me to write honestly. If you haven't realized it yet then I'll tell you now that yes; I am actually an EDS POTS teen myself. I'm emulating myself a bit on Hinata here but my case is still quite different than this. This makes it a bit extremely difficult for me to write these recent chapters because of the immense pain it causes me personally. I'm trying to update as quickly as I can but between fighting illnesses, schoolwork, and the emotional strain of writing this it is very difficult. Thank you for you're understanding!)