KEEP IT REAL WITH ME

FUCK HIM

I don't know how I let myself get the this point. The only male I have fucked around with is the also the only male to take my virginity. I told myself that I wouldn't be this guy. wandering at the bar asking for another round of drinks. My name is Gavin at the moment  I am a college junior majoring in business. I am currently in Maryland but originally from California. I never thought about exploring my sexual desires for men until I got here. Weird right? California seems more open to those of the LGBT community but I met someone here who made me think I could be open with them. Now I am sitting here at the bar listening to this terrible music half drunk. 

Let's start off from the beginning. During my Junior year of college I thought it would be fun to go out with some friends and have some fun. All of my male friends were straight (or so I thought). Rolan was my age and found out that I had an interest in men when he stayed at my apartment that night after we all got back and happened to stumble upon the gay porn I was watching. I had no idea I did not clear my history. He was searching for black cars for sale in the area but before he could complete his search black cock disables little college boy popped up and of course this fool clicks on it. I was so embarassed when he asked me about it. I could not even form the words to say to him. I don't know whether it was his hormones or the Hennessey we both had been drinking that night but he was not mad at me at all. In fact he took me by the hand locked my room door and helped me with my "confusion and curiousity."

We started off real slow that night by kissing and touching. Later on we progressed to oral. I still remember the first night we sucked each other off. "Damn Rolan! Your throat feel so good!", I said. He replied "it's only right that I return the favor since you sucked me off." All things were going through my mind while I grabbed the sheets and Rolan grabbed my dick with his mouth. His mouth was so wet and he tightened his lips around my hard 10 inches of dick. I was shaking all over and could feel myself about to cum and I was about to tell him but I didn't get the chance. I squirted my warm fluid all down his throat and he kept it in his mouth and came up to my lips and kissed me. It was weird tasting my own cum but it turned me on as well. 

Within the next weeks we went further. I had no idea what I was but from what I saw in porn, I knew I liked the idea of verse guys because they can play both positions. Rolan came over one day with condoms and vodka and turned me the hell out. I told him to take it slow with me since it was my first time. He did as I asked and relaxed me with foreplay. He kissed me then pulled down my shorts and then told me to put my ass on his face. He took his tounge and wet up my ass.  His tounge was long and wide and he made my whole body squirm. He then put some lube on his condom and some in my ass and had me start to sit down. The pain was too much at first. "Hold up Rolan. Let me drink some more", I said. I grabbed some more vodka and gave it a few minutes to kick in. I was feeling so damn good that I lubed up Rolan dick again and started to slid down him." FUCCKKK GAVIN! You so damn tight!", Rolan said.  His face was so sexy as I finally got half of his dick in me. I began to get my rhythm and the pain began to turn to pleasure. He flipped me over after I rode him for about 10 minutes and began slowing fucking me missionary, kissing me in between strokes. What he did next amazed me. He told me to grab a condom and I quickly did so he laid on his stomach and let me fuck him. He told me to go harder and I began fucking him until I felt his body shake and he came all over my sheets. He turned on his back and said "Ride my face again." I did as I was asked and he began eating my ass more passionately this time. His tounge went deeper into my whole and I could hold my cum no longer. I exploded all over his face and began to lick it off and tounge kiss him to share my nut. 

After that we fucked almost everyday. We were able to keep our secret from the rest of our friends. We would not go out together much but instead just do things in my room. One day I asked him to come to the campus basketball game and assured him that we didn't have to go out and hold hands or anything because I am not out and neither was he but at least do something outside of the room with just us two. He agreed. As we arrived at the game I noticed that a set of eyes kept staring at me. I got a glimpse of a male from the basketball team that kept staring at me and Rolan. I tapped Rolan and asked, "Do you know that nigga?, He has been staring at us for the last five minutes." Rolan shook his head no. I let it go and then Rolan got up and went to the restroom. I didn't think much of it because he had drank a lot of soda before we came here. Rolan had been gone a good while and the game was almost over. I decided to go find him. 

I went to the restrooms and he was not there.  I then went to the concession booth but he was not there either. I was about to give up but then I thought to check near the locker rooms. I went closer to the locker rooms and could hear some commotion. I walked down one of the halls and I realized there were some moans coming from near the showers. I got down the next hall and saw that basketball player who kept staring at me had Rolan bent over on a bench pounding the hell out of him. WHO THE FUCK DOES THIS NIGGA THINK HE IS, I thought. I then remember where I was and that I had to keep my cool. Although Rolan and I had been together less than a year, I thought we had an agreement that it would be only me and him fucking one another. That BASTARD! I made my way back to my seat and by that time the game was over. 

I did not say a damn thing to Rolan the whole way home. "What's wrong with you my dude?", Rolan asked. "Nothing. Just get us back to my room", I said coldly. As soon as we got to my room I went to the bathroom and shed some tears. I gave my damn virginity to this dude and he lied to me. He could of just kept it real and told me him and that dude were fucking. I now know how he was able to take my dick so easily when we first fucked. He was giving it up that ass up this whole time. I gathered myself and came out the bathroom to see that Rolan had went to sleep. I laid down in bed beside him staring at him when something just came over me. Next thing I know my open hand connected with his whole face. "SHIIIT nigga!", He yelled. "What the fuck you do that for?" I was ready to fight so I told him everything I knew. "Rolan my dude, you lied, you can get your dusty ass out my bed and take your ass back to your place", I said. After explaining myself this dude could do nothing but leave because I was so damn close to taking an empty glass bottle and putting it to use on his face. 

Now I am here at this bar. I didn't think I would fall so quick for someone but I did and got my heart broke. I blocked Rolan from all my social media and my phone completely. "What do I do now?", I thought. I knew when I had an interest in guys that I would get a glimpse of what females were saying about how men are dogs and play games. I began to stand up by slowly began to wobble. This older lady who worked at the bar helped me to my Uber and I thanked her, got in  and dozed off in the car. "We at your address man", the uber driver said to me. I got out went to my room with in my drunken state and my feelings, laid in bed for about 10 minutes thinking about my life and fell asleep with a FUCK HIM mentality.