KEEP IT REAL WITH ME

OUT WITH THE OLD IN WITH THE NEW???

TWO MONTHS LATER:

"Tracy get your slow ass out here so we can get to the stadium", I yelled from my car to her walking out the building. She was looking real nice in her cap and gown. It was graduation day and I was extremely excited and so was she. "Looking this damn good takes time boy", she said while hopping in my car. I had passed all my classes and was graduating with a 3.8 GPA. I was so proud of Tracy and myself for making to the finish line. We arrived at the stadium, I saw my mother and father and younger brother. I waved at them and headed towards the rest of the graduating class. When they called my name and I walked across stage a tear fell from my eyes. I was so ready for this next chapter in my life. 

My parents, brother, Tracy, the deacon and I went out to eat after the ceremony. I was excited and my mother had tears in her eyes. She told me how proud her father and I were of me and my younger brother punched me in the arm and told me he was going to be starting college soon and was going to have a 4.0 when he graduated, we laughed. 

As I watched the deacon and Tracy be all lovey dovey I could not help but think about what could have been between me and Victor. Although I was mad at him I still did love him. I have received some calls from him that were never returned and some text messages I never responded to, including the one today with a congratulations from him. I have not blocked him like I did Rolan. Even though I have not responded to him for some reason I did  not block him yet. I was snapped out of my train of thought by the waiter who told us that she wanted to take a picture of the whole group of us. I slid close to my parents and brother and Tracy and Deacon stood close to us. We all smiled and captured a great moment. 

After the dinner my parents and brother headed back to their hotel to catch their flight back to California in the morning. I hugged them and Tracy goodbye and headed back to my apartment. I have totally deleted the idea of interning at Victors job and have seriously thought about accepting two paid internships offers. One in New York and one back in California. I had about one week to respond to both and was not sure which one I wanted to do. I was about to start watching tv when I heard a knock at my door. I opened it and there he was with flowers and a black box. "Victor what the hell are you doing here? Go tend to your family and go find a good lawyer to help you with your upcoming divorce", before I could close the door he put his foot there. He looked at me sadly into my eyes and said " Gavin when you said all of that I noticed you didn't stare me in my eyes for too long. Say all that you said to me before and look me in the eyes baby. Also look me dead in my eyes and tell me you don't love me." I looked at him then back down at my feet. I couldn't do it. I couldn't look him into his eyes. 

He continued to stand at my door and explain to me how he was so sorry. He explained to me that him and Melissa were moving forward with the divorce and of course it was not finalized because that takes time but he showed me the papers of the legal dates set to have everything taken care of. He asked could he come in. I don't know why I did but I let him in. He handed me the flowers which had a congratulations bear with a cap and gown on. I was about to turn around and put the flowers down but I felt him tap me. I turned around and this dude had opened the black box he had and he was on his knees. He had tears in his eyes as he said, "Gavin we started off this thing not knowing where it would go. You were this cute younger guy at the bar who had the balls to call me and from there we made history. That valentines celebration we had was the most special night of my life and it must have been for you too because although it is tucked I see you are still wearing my necklace. I am not just asking for a second chance after the mistake I made of not keeping it real for you. Gavin Cove, will you marry me?" I cried so much and so many emotions ran through my head. I was so damn angry at him but so overwhelmed with his speech. I didn't know what to do. Should I say no, I would know that I dodged a lying coward but lost a person who I still thought may be my soulmate. If I should say yes I had to forgive him for all the hurt he caused and fight trust issues that I have built from his mistakes but he could make me happy. "Victor........