SORRY|| JACKAVERY

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If I could sleep,
I'd dream of what we'd be.
But I can feel you slip further from me.
-EDEN
~~

Jack's pov

the sky is so gloomy today, just like everyone. Its been 2 months and Andy's still in the hospital. Its been hard. Really hard. No one is joking around, no one has energy to do anything.

I've been visiting Andy every day, if i the band doesn't have any shows or recording, i stay there over night, hoping that she would wake up if i stay there.

Right now, the band is going to perform on the Jingle Ball. Camila was on stage, singing. The boys and i were in our dressing room, getting ready.

"i would like to dedicate this next song to my dear friend, Andy Rose, we both wrote this song together and through the whole process we both got to know each other. She's really sweet and really passionate on her works, this one is very close to her heart and I'm really happy that she trusted me enough to sing this song and share it to all of you" Camila says on the stage. The boys and i stopped vocalizing and listened to the song.

//Dirty tissues, trust issues
Glasses on the sink, they didn't fix you
Lonely pillows in a strangers bed
Little voices in my head
Secret keeping, stop the bleeding
Lost a little weight because I wasn't eating
All the souls that I can't listen to, to tell the truth

Loving you was young, and wild, and free
Loving you was cool, and hot, and sweet
Loving you was sunshine, safe and sound
A steady place to let down my defenses
But loving you had consequences

Hesitation, awkward conversation
Running on low expectation
Every siren that I was ignoring
I'm payin' for it

Loving you was young, and wild, and free
Loving you was cool, and hot, and sweet
Loving you was sunshine, safe and sound
A steady place to let down my defenses
But loving you had consequences

Loving you was dumb, dark and cheap
Loving you still takes shots at me
Found loving you was sunshine, but then it poured
And I lost so much more than my senses
'Cause loving you had consequences

Loving you//

when she's done, i breathed out a shaky sigh and let my tears fall. The boys patted my back and gave me a hug as i cry on their shoulders.

"shh, its gonna be okay man, we'll get through this, she's going to wake up soon." Jonah says, i nodded my head and wiped my tears away. Our band got called from outside so we all fixed ourselves and went out of the room.

My nerves started getting into me. I felt like vomiting from all the crowd. This is making me nervous even more.

"I don't think i can do this.." i said looking at Corbyn. He looked at me woth the same anxious look.

"Same. But we have to, for Andy." he says looking out to the crowd. I turn my head to face the crowd, my nerves still crazy. The sun setting from the sky. The beat of our song started making the crowd erupt in cheers. The boys and i ran out to the stage.

~~

"so, tonight, we're going to do a cover real quick, we always sing this with our best friend, who by the way is very close to us." Daniel says looking at the crowd. There are posters being shown up like:
"JANDY RAVERY WILL RISE AGAIN" "ANDY AVERY WILL FOREVER BE MY OTP" "#JANDYRAVERY" "ANDY WILL RISE AGAIN" and more.

"so since we dont have her here for now, we'll do a different song. Alessia is going to be joining us tonight, come on out Alessia."  Alessia came out to the stage and walked up to us, waving at the crowd as cheers erupted in the whole arena.

//She just wants to be beautiful
She goes unnoticed, she knows no limits
She craves attention, she praises an image
She prays to be sculpted by the sculptor
Oh, she don't see the light that's shining
Deeper than the eyes can find it
Maybe we have made her blind
So she tries to cover up her pain and cut her woes away
'Cause cover girls don't cry after their face is made

Jonah started the verse, looking at the sky as the moon shines above us with Alessia in the middle.

But there's a hope that's waiting for you in the dark
You should know you're beautiful just the way you are
And you don't have to change a thing, the world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful
Oh-oh, oh-oh
And you don't have to change a thing, the world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful

Zach sang trying his hardest not to cry. He waves to the fans who are holding some posters with Andy and Zach's picture in it.

She has dreams to be an envy, so she's starving
You know, covergirls eat nothing
She says beauty is pain and there's beauty in everything
What's a little bit of hunger?
I could go a little while longer, she fades away
She don't see her perfect, she don't understand she's worth it
Or that beauty goes deeper than the surface
Oh, oh
So to all the girls that's hurting
Let me be your mirror, help you see a little bit clearer
The light that shines within

Corbyn sang the next verse, giving his all and putting his anxiety behind him.

There's a hope that's waiting for you in the dark
You should know you're beautiful just the way you are
And you don't have to change a thing, the world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful

Oh-oh, oh-oh
And you don't have to change a thing, the world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful

All of us sang in harmony. Walking to the front while also waving at the crowd.

No better you than the you that you are (no better you than the you that you are)
No better life than the life we're living (no better life than the life we're living)
No better time for your shine, you're a star (no better time for your shine, you're a star)
Oh, you're beautiful, oh, you're beautiful

Daniel sang, putting his arm around my shoulder as i sing the second voice.

And there's a hope that's waiting for you in the dark
You should know you're beautiful just the way you are
And you don't have to change a thing, the world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful
Oh-oh, oh-oh
And you don't have to change a thing, the world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful//

I sang the last verse, my voice breaking in the middle as tears started pouring out of my eyes. I wiped my tears off with my shirt, the boys gave me hugs for comfort, so did Alessia.

"she's going to wake up bud, dont worry, she will" she said patting my back. I nodded my head as we walk back to our dressing room.

I'm still hoping she will. I wont lose hope.