Rules(Jenlisa)

Rules XXIX

Jennie's Point Of View

"And what are you planning to do now?"

I look at Seulgi and buried my face on a pillow again, all things were alright until that Hanbin entered our lives, that dumbass is so annoying, and what annoyed me the most that he really has a point on what he said last time.

Why is it love need to be like this? It is so deceiving, it will make you idiot and dumb, I know my wrong that I only used my heart not my mind but if you are so inlove you will forget to use your brain, wait how can I even use them at the same time? Is it even possible?

"Have you talk to Hanbin?"

I nod my head even if it is still buried on my comfy pillow, about a second I got up and look at the trio sitting on my bed.

"No we haven't, I mean yes we did talked but we really haven't." What am I saying?

"What?" They looked confused, who's not gonna be?

Why am I explaining so messy? "I mean we talked but I just scold him, he doesn't have a chance to explain his reason."

"As if you will still listen to his sickening reason." Yeri said sarcastically, she has a point.

Seriously, I don't really know if I want to talk to Hanbin since I am so pissed, But everytime I remembered his smile.... his sad smile I felt pity, and then I will realized that one of my feelings led me to a fucking disaster for believing him. Fooled me just once but he did it twice.

"What will I do?" I asked in a verge of tears.

"What do you want to happen?"

What do I want to happen? Besides I want to make all things better? Nothing else.

"Just think to what you want to do or to happen, then when you finally decided, do something about it. After all, that's your choice, you hold your heart and mind so even we advice you to what you'll gonna do if it wasn't your choice then it will just gonna end up in trash." Chaeyoung advice with a smile.

I took a deep breath as I closed my eyes, what I want to do? what do I want to do first? While my eyes are still close all I am seeing is Lisa, I want to fix all our mess I want to do it with her, It seems like I need to face her, but I think I need to talk to Hanbin first so when I talk to Lisa all things are goona be fine. Gonna be fine really?

I hope.

~•~

When I entered our room I already saw Lisa sitting on her chair, since she was sitting at the back row.

I was about to walk towards my sit when she smiled genuinely. "Hey, Good afternoon."

OMG! I don't know what to do, I don't know how to speak, I feel like I deafeted a junior highschool get noticed by her crush this is the first time we will talk again after many weeks, and my heart beats really fast, shit I feel like my heart won if there's a marathon going inside my body.

She's still staring while smiling, act normal Jennie Geez Jennie just say hi to her you looked like a pole standing there c'mon just say hi!

I was about to open my mouth when suddenly someone hit Lisa's head with a notebook.

"Ouch! What was that for?"

"Let's go! You're so annoying. Just make sure that you will give me my chocolate or else....." Dahyun our president said.

"Or else what Dahyun?"

"Or else we will split direction."

"What?"

"Don't what what me Manoban, If you don't want me to put this whole thing inside your mouth." She said and show Lisa the notebook.

"Dahyun chill out, your blood pressure!" Lisa said while laughing. "Here! I bought your chocolates." She hand Dahyun a bag full of chocolates.

I looked away and proceed walking towards my chair, I look back to check them, they are now busy talking and laughing to eachother.

She's fine now, she finally moved on. She's happy with her life now, it seems like there's someone who's making her happy now. Not so long ago I'm just writing notes for her and gives that to our president so when she attend class again she still have notes, but now? She's already happy with her. They are getting closer.

At least she's happy, that's enough for me.

I lowered my head to see that my notes is wet, It is teardrops. Who am I fooling? This is not right, but what can I do? at the end I will still gonna lose.

Our professor continue to lecture but there's nothing entering my mind, this is damn disappointing, I can't focus. I am here at university to study not to act like this. I am being finicky.

I look back to see if Hanbin is there, but no! He didn't attend again, how can I talk to him if he isn't here? There's nothing right to what's happening today, this day? Maybe a curse.

Where are you?

I texted Hanbin after class, he immediately replied, good for him.

Why?

I need to talk to you.

Where are you?

Classroom

Alright, I'll be there.

I placed my phone on the table and stared at my hand, after finding out the truth nothing happy really happened, I'm still broken, wreck and fucked up every single day.

"Game." Hanbin entered the room with a sly smirk on his face, he sat at the front seat and turn the chair around to face me. "Tell me how you hate me."

"I didn't call you for that, I just want to know the reason why you did that?"

"Because I want to."

"Be serious, what's the reason?"

He leaned against his chair and looked away. The cool Hanbin earlier is gone. "What's the difference if you doesn't know the reason and when you know the reason?"

"I just want to know the truth, I don't want to be fooled by lies again, I'm tired of being dumb, Hanbin. Dumb because I keep trusting and believing with lies. You fooled me twice already, please don't make it thrice."

He smiled, the genuine one, The smile he gave me few years ago.

"Uhm can you please do not know about it?"

"Hanbin!"

"Let's say to all my lies, don't include the fact that I really love you, I love you so so much Jennie and I don't want you to end up with the person like me."

What? I don't understand, if he doesn't want me to end up with a person like him then why'd he snatched me from Lisa?

"You know, I got a little bit of hope that we still have a chance for each other, cause I can see that you're kinda concern for me.... But I can see either that your love for her, is more prominent."

I don't know what to say, I talk to him to lighten all our mistakes but pushing that topic might hurt him, might deepen the scar that he's enduring, I know he broke me, he messed mines and Lisa's relationship but still I don't want to hurt him.

"I wish you and Lisa happiness, you deserve to be happy Jen. I'll miss you and I love you." He kissed my forehead before walking out of the room.

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I want to end the story tonight, lmao