What Will We Be?

I Need You

CHAPTER 4

"Love is like that. I could crush her beneath the weight of confession."

Namjoon wrestled with his emotions and thoughts. But then he told himself to man up because it was the perfect time to make clear how he feels towards Kiara. They walked in silence along a quiet street. Namjoon stopped under this yellow-lighted lamp.

"You know Kiara, I've known you for all my life but I've never before felt this way..."

"What is it? Are you alright? Did you get hurt in that game? Do you feel sick?" Kiara asked while turning around and rushing to put her hand on Namjoons forehead to measure if he had any fever.

Namjoon grabbed Kiaras hands gently. And looked to her eyes softly but with a little sad expression because he had a little hunch how this was all going to go. But still he decided to go on and finally tell her how he feels.

"I've never been so scared of losing something in my entire life, then again nothing in my life has ever meant as much to me as you do." Namjoon said with his soft and low voice.

Kiara was kind of surprised about this situation but she knew his best friend would never abandon her even if she said her true feelings out loud. She knew also how hard this had to be to Namjoon. So she chose her words very carefully.

"Namjoon I know this must be hard for you but you know me better than anyone. I see that little sadness in your eyes. I think you know my answer already." Kiara said softly.

"Yes I think so, too." Namjoon dropped his head and Kiara saw few drops of tears fall down to the ground leaving marks into the asphalt. Namjoon let go of Kiaras hands.

Kiara felt so bad for Namjoon. She lifted Namjoons head from his chin gently with her index finger. Their eyes met again and Kiara noticed how broken Namjoon was from inside.

"They say that the act of love is confession." Kiara said.

"You're going to find a perfect girlfriend and even a wife for you. Our thing would never work. And I'm not going anywhere. I'll stay by your side forever. I promise, you won't lose me. I'm glad that you came up with so beautiful confession but it's just not for me." Kiara continued with a little and friendly smile on her lips.

"Friendzone, huh?" Namjoon finally answered while this little sparkle coming back into his eyes which were filled with tears just a moment ago.

"Friendzone it is." Kiara said smiling when she got that Namjoon was kind of joking again.

Both of them smiled warmly looking to each others eyes knowing that they are still best friends no matter what. They hugged for a long time still under the same lamp and Namjoon cried the final tears. Kiara wiped out the tears from Namjoons eyes with her thumb almost crying, too.

They continued their way to their home neighbourhood in a comfortable silence. The darkness surrounded the friendzone in a fluffy blanket. Stars were shining brighter than any other night because there weren't clouds anymore.

"My sky is clear / All pain, say goodbye / Goodbye"

TO BE CONTINUED...