Wishes of The Fallen

Chapter 3

My head was beginning to pound and I felt my head ache begin to grow, the migraines were coming back. They only started after meeting Louis the first time and went away shortly afterwards but they're returning with a vengeance. They were worse this time. I kept hitting my head against the door lightly, trying to make the stress to feel like it was going away but it wouldn't. Every nightmare that I've ever had, every fear that I thought I'd gotten over, came to life in that library. The thought of having to go through the same thing I did after that terrible night again, made me feel queasy. It was like I was having deja vu, dealing with the nightmares and the pain again.

What if these nightmares were to never go away? That I'd have to live the rest of my life in fear. Fear of something so terrible happening again.

"Aspen?" I heard someone say.

"Go away! I can't even be alone in the fucking bathroom?," I shouted, putting my face in my hands.

"Aspen its Louis, you're in the boy's bathroom dumb ass," he said, I could just picture the stupid smirk on his face. I looked up, now to my embarrassment, I saw the urinals. My cheeks got all red and hot.

"I'm coming in whether you like it or not. Not like I needed your permission in the first place," he warned before pushing the door open. I sighed, pulling at my hair. Louis tramples through the door looking furious but I mean, when is he not?

"You made me look like a fucking idiot," he screams, the sound echoing off the walls.

"Maybe because you are a fucking idiot! Did you expect me to just let it go and keep your dirty little secret? Because I won't." I crossed my arms across my chest, for my own protection more than anything.

"Of course, I'm the idiot. Says the girl who ran into the men's room. Quite clever, aren't you?" I opened my mouth thinking I had a comeback but of course, I didn't. He smirked at my failure to speak and continued his little rant.

"Listen, you better keep your mouth shut and I know you will because I'm gonna make sure of it, I won't regret it either. Don't have anywhere to run now, do you?" I feel my breath hitch in my throat as he takes a step forward.

"You know what I can do to you." He takes another step forward. My eyes start to dart around looking for an escape but I'm cornered.

"Awe the little tramp is scared. Anything else you want to bitch about?" I try to back up and get away from him but I feel myself hit the wall.

"Leave me alone!" I scream at the top of my lungs, hoping someone would hear and come running to save me, but no one did.

"You're worthless and you know it. Why don't you go back to where you came from?" I couldn't breathe.

"Do your parents not want you? I bet they don't, I wouldn't either. I mean look at you! You're fat, you're ugly, and you will never amount to anything, ever! Go walk off a cliff, it sure as hell would make my life a lot easier." Ouch. He was standing only inches from me and that's when I broke. No, I didn't cry. No, I didn't push him away. I simply let myself crash down and fall apart, my mind was shutting down and it's as if everything went numb. I stared at the tile and then I let myself fall to the ground. I couldn't take it anymore, he was right and I knew it. I pulled my knees to my chest and tried to calm down but I couldn't. My breathing had become ragged and shallow, the only thing I could think of was screaming. Screaming until I lost my voice but I knew I couldn't, not here. Louis would make me regret even trying. I almost opened my mouth to try but no sound came. All of his words came crashing down at once and I burst into tears.

"No one will ever want you." He was ruthless and he kept going, adding more and more onto the list, until I snapped.

"Leave me alone." I sobbed. "Leave me alone!" I cried out, the tears kept coming. "Why won't you just leave me alone? Why do you enjoy seeing me like this?" I looked up at him and he just stood there with no emotions. "Why did you come here if you're just going to hurt me?" He stayed silent and slammed his fist on the sink next to me.