After a few minutes of waiting...
The concert was about to start, Vice and Jaki already settled near the stage and waiting for the first artist to perform.
Jaki was happy to see that the first artist to perform was one of her favorites
It was Gabrielle Aplin, about to sing "My Salvation"
You are the avalanche
One world away
My make believing
While I'm wide awake
Just a trick of light
To bring me back around again
Those wild eyes
A psychedelic silhouette
I never meant to fall for you but I
Was buried underneath and
All that I could see was white
My salvation
My, my
My salvation
My, my
You are the snowstorm
I'm purified
The darkest fairytale
In the dead of night
Let the band play out
As I'm making my way home again
Glorious we transcend
Into a psychedelic silhouette
I never meant to fall for you but I
Was buried underneath and
All that I could see was white
My salvation
My, my
My salvation
My, my
My salvation
My, my
My salvation
My, my
My salvation
My, my
My salvation
My, my
My salvation
My, my
My salvation
My, my
Every lyric of the song hits home for Jaki.
As she lets herself get lost in the melody.
She kept on thinking, how thankful she is that Vice saved her. How he saved her from those bullies 8 years ago. How he saved her from her own demons, and took care of her when nobody else would.
(FLASHBACK - JAKI...)
Tired from all the work done in the studio, I went home and about to rest when I heard my mom calling me...
"Jaki!!!!"
"Yes mom?!"
"Have you had your dinner?"
"Yes I already had dinner mom."
"By the way, this came to the mail today."
It was a letter from the production company to whom I pitched my script.
I was so excited....until I found out that it was.....
[REJECTED]
[NOT FIT FOR PRODUCTION]
My heart sank....
just when I thought my heart could not sink more lower...I heard this...
"Why don't you just do something much more worthwhile? Your father and I told you from even before that nothing good would result from pursuing being a writer. You know that it is a very cutthroat industry and many are much more experienced than you. You've submitted like a more than 50 scripts in different production houses, yet nothing. When are you gonna listen to us? Why are you so stubborn? D'you think that you could have a good life by writing scripts, by writing stories? huh??? Your colleagues might have had much better job than you do."
I wanted to disappear...
the people whom I thought would support me are the ones who seem to put me down...
Why is that? Why???? I asked my myself.
I know I'm just starting in this indutry but why do my parents have to be like that? Why can't they just support me?
Ever since I was young, they always have me do my best, but still I haven't even heard them say that they're proud of me or even felt the slightest of it. Why do I always feel that I am not good enough for them? Why does it seem like no matter what I do, I will never be good enough, I won't be worthy of their love.
I started to feel my tears running my face. I can't take it anymore....my heart is so tired....
I ran outside our house..and went near the moonlit river...
I need to be alone....
I want to be alone....
Though deep in my heart I know I do not want to...
I decided to call him....
"Vice?" my voice cracking..
(Vice's phone ringing)
"Hello? Jaki?"
"Wait a sec...are you crying???" a worried tone in his voice
"hhhmmmpp" i sniffed and tried to control my tears
"where are you Jaki? I'm gonna come right over, just tell me where you are." he said in haste.
"I'm here at the place where I am at peace." I said, this time I couldn't control my tears..
"Okay,I'll be there. Wait for me, and please..don't do anything stupid." I can hear the worry in his voice.
We'll he does really worry when I am like this as I have tried doing that something 'stupid' before.
I tried taking my life once...(but I'll tell it some other time..)
He arrived 15mins after I called.
He came rushing to me, and held me tight in his arms. I sank my head in his chest as he brushed my hair and tried to calm me down. A few minutes later, he held my face and asked...
"What happened?"
I told him everything..I don't think I could ever keep a secret from him, we'll except what I feel in my heart.
"Look, you are a great writer, and those people are just dumb enough not to appreciate all your work. They are just after the profit and not for the beauty of it. They couldn't see what you see. That is why they did that. As for your parents, they'll soon realize that this is your passion and this is what you love to do. They'll be proud of you in time."
"Why are you like this to me? Aren't you tired?" I asked him
"What kind of question is that?" he asked in a serious tone
"You know...because I am so difficult, I have this tendencies, I act stupid sometimes, I have this knack to take my life and to succumb to my demons." I told him
"Hey, I know you can be so difficult at times. But you're my bestfriend. You're the only bestfriend that I have and if I have to protect you even from your own demons, no matter how hard. I am always here for you." in a deep and hushed tone..
My eyes and heart were heavy as I fell asleep....
but I know I am safe....
In his arms....
(END OF FLASHBACK)
YOU ARE READING
WOULDN'T BE A LIE...
FanfictionREGRETS...causes so much more pain than a heartbreak...IRONIC isn't it? but, what would you do if you have a SECOND CHANCE at LOVE and found HOPE even in darkest moments of your life?
