"days i'd cry until my eyes were red and puffy because of that."
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mackenzie ziegler
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the whole summer in bahamas. you may think i had fun. but no.
lauren and i actually went there because my sister, maddie and my mom found out what was going on at school.
three years and they never noticed? damn. torturing johnny orlando for three years.
during my two months in the bahamas, everyday for 7 hours, lauren and i were given lectures on thinking about people's feelings. thinking about why we hurt johnny and what he felt this entire time.
i mean, now that i think about it, i feel terrible. lauren was his sister and tortured him because of me. i brainwashed her into thinking that her brother was a piece of garbage that didn't deserve anything.
the last two weeks all lauren and i did was cry. we felt like insane creatures. what were we? why did we do that? ashton.
ashton brainwashed me into thinking johnny was nothing. he knew that johnny and i were extremely close and thought he'd get in the way of our relationship.
ashton is nothing but a viscous monster. behind the last three months of sophomore year, he'd yell at me constantly. he would always hit lauren and i if we left his side.
why did i get myself into this mess? it's an incredible disaster. johnny would never forgive us. how could i face him at school?
i hurt him.
i hurt the boy who was once my best friend because i turned into an insane creature. making it even worse, i fell for ashton and turned lauren into the same insane creature i was.
words could not describe how disgusted i was in myself. days i'd cry until my eyes were red and puffy because of that.
there's nothing i can do now. nothing that can change johnny into forgiving us. three years of damaging him to the point where he even thought that he was a piece of nothing that didn't deserve to live or be loved.
never make this mistake, never hurt who you use to be close with because of one toxic relationship you were in.
the minute i landed back in los angeles, i ran to the police station and explained the whole ashton situation.
i don't know what he's doing right now, but he's probably serving juvenile detention.
he's going to hate me. but what can i do? i know johnny already hates me.
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a/n i hope you enjoyed chapter three !! don't forget to vote <33
