You may be wondering who e his well he's some one I cared about who I met during the the last month of school he light skinned and he has beautiful hair and he's fine as fuck to me but that's not the problem what the problem is that we're basically the same person just different genders but we were cool throughout the month of june we would text all-day and did some crazy shit I will admit but we were cool and I was moving and of course I knew I wasn't going be able to talk to him as I moved so I told him that and before that we would talk laugh and other things I shouldn't mention but he was important to me and it was fine he would make me feel so comfortable even though I felt like I wanted to die he accepted me and I did towards him he was a good and bad influence but I was cool he made me laugh he help me experience and different person of me and I unlocked him in a sort of way and then the day comes were I move so I tell him all this funny shit and tell him I'm gonna be back trust me and I felt like he did but Idk, but then a few weeks later Like 2 weeks I went to visit my family in Miami and ofc they have Wi-Fi and throughout that whole July I tried to text I would send hey or hi ND I wouldn't get a reply so as a person of myself I thought he was mad at me so I just stopped texting him and then I saw active like ev]ery day but no reply so I went on with my summer still having our memories in the back of my head and when I would be lonely or mad I would read our messages from the beginning so I could laugh but he was never actually there then school starts and I see him but I'm still scared that he's mad at me so I don't walk up to him or say then I get sad because he's there but I can't touch him and I know how bad I want him. So I just continue going to school trying so hard to forget but a guy like him is like memories don't go away so I texted him it was kinda like a threat I said why don't we talk anymore and 8f you don't answer I'll just ask you in person so he answered telling Me that he doesn't have to explain himself and I understand that but I never did anything wrong to hurt you or anything so I was confused and still is but I don't understand because when we talked to said that if you were mad or angry at me I would have been on the block list and I'm not so what is it and most people say forget him but how do you forget someone you wanted so bad I'm not going say I love him but we were cool and sometimes I want to be the first person to walk out of peoples live no the other way around and Ik he's never gonna understand how I feel because this is locked away in my phone and he won't get to it nether is anyone I ever talked to because this is my darkest secret that I'm in love with Eric but he doesn't love me at all so I can just for give and I always thought and I'm probably right that I am the girl that's fat and ugly and all men will Herr want to to do is Huck ke and leave me says my mom so probably she right so I gotta wipe my tears and walk right by him for the rest of my high school life and I don't want anyone different I just want him. And at the end of the day he's a bitch cause now he's sitting alone when he could be sitting with me these are the things he told me about him
. His name is Eric C.
.Nick name Snickers,da***,babe etc
.favorite color is blue or black idr
.his birthday is November 26
.he bites his lip when he look at me like even now
