To Hell and Back (Villain!Deku)

My fault!

Bakugo

News of Izuku Midoriya's disappearance spread like wild fire. It's been a week since it had occurred and he's been all over the news. From sightings to interviews, the media was obsessing over it. Only 2 days ago was it found out that he had been turned down by All Might which had pushed him over the edge.

I've found out that the bullying I've been doing to him played a part in his disappearance. I'm guessing he finally snapped when All Might shattered his dream of being a hero.

I can't help but feel bad. I bullied and beat him for years just so I could discourage him from trying to become something he's not. When he passed my attack like it was nothing I should have thought something of it. I just can't help but to think this is partly my fault.

It was a Saturday and I should be out with my buddies but I can't help but to think about Deku. I mean why should I care about him. Why should I be stuck inside thinking about how bad I messed up.

Nope! I need fresh air. I can't handle hearing the news any longer.

I took a walk around the neighborhood and I eventually forgot why I took a walk. I texted some of my buddies to meet me at the café we hangout at.

xTime skipx

Two weeks had passed and everyday made me feel more uncomfortable. The disappearance of Dek- Izuku was still all over the news. I kept having this thought that would not go away. What if I was nicer to him? Would he still be here? Could this whole situation be avoided if he just had a friend?

At first it was merely a whisper in the back of my head. Now, it's always screaming, as if it needs to be recognized. Nothing I do makes it go away. I've tried being nice to people, I stopped cursing, so what else could it want from me. It's not like I care what it says or anything.

Ok maybe I do.

Actually I care way to much. I mean I grew up with him so of course I care.

With that finally settled I made a decision I never would have made.

As I began to walk to their house, I realized I had no clue what to say. I thought of many different things to say, but once I got to the apartment complex I realized I should just be friendly. I took the stairs so I had more time to think, but it flew by faster than I had hoped. The door opened as I looked into the sad apartment.

"How are you doing, Mrs. Midoriya?"

She spoke no words but her eyes did.

Her eyes shows that she has been to hell and back. The black under her eyes added to the shadow of stress shown through her eyes. She gently wrapped her arms around me and began to sob. I wish I knew how to comfort her, but I could only hug her back. A silent tear ran down my face as we stood there. A couple minutes passed as she began to pulled herself together.

"Thank you for coming, Katsuki~kun. Come in, I'll make some tea!"

I nodded and followed her in. The kitchen were pretty clean but you could clearly see the mess from Izuku's disappearance was still there. The ripped up posters, the burned clothing, even his broken laptop.  I wonder how that happened.

I sat down with Mrs. Midoriya, but we only sat in silence. She looked as if she wanted to say something but couldn't.

When she finally spoke the ice in the room faded leaving behind a cold breeze of sadness.

"Izuku looked up to you, Katsuki~kun. He always admired you quirk, and was open about saying how lucky you were to have such an amazing quirk." Her tears were silently running down her cheeks. "As a child, he would come home and tell me about the things you would do. Izuku would never say he was jealous but I think truly he was."

As she finished the TV turned on revealing news that crashed me.

"On the subject of Izuku Midoriya, he has been found, but not in the way we hoped. Izuku has passed away in what looked like a a tragic accident."

All the feelings I kept down rushed up to my head. I couldn't hold any of it in anymore. Mrs. Midoriya was taken out of her shock as I slammed my hand into the table.

I began to sob and I mean hard. I couldn't move, so my body fell limp onto the table.

It's all my fault!

Mrs. Midoriya wrapped her arms around me as just cried.

"It's all my fault!" I wailed in between sobs. She gave me a confused yet sad look. "I only wanted to protect him, so I pushed him away. I would bully him, but I only wanted him to give up on his dream. I just didn't want him to get hurt! I-I'm sorry!" I whispered the last part as I felt Inko begin to tremble. 

"Thank you Katsuki~kun for trying."

Her words broke me.