Poems

All These Lies

Feed me all these lies
And make me feel full again
Because that's all I've heard
From you for years

Fill my thoughts
With contemplated happiness
And make me believe you're there
When you really aren't

My heart is a battlefield
And you come out the victor
But my heart means nothing
To the likes of you

And you toss it
And kick it
And stab it with the innocent knife
That lurked behind your back

And yet I stay
Thinking it's right
This is just a feeling
My insecurities outweighing the wrong

I'm blinded by affection
Masked with no confession
And taught no correction
For this unloved connection

My arms took your lies
The lashes that you dished
Which blindsided the truth
And they collapsed under the weight

Yet it almost felt good
The stinging numbed the pain
The color silenced the voices
And my loneliness gave me comfort

But I thought I was happy
And I was content
Sure it hurt a bit
And that's love, isn't it?

But all these lies
All these fucking lies
They tell another story
They speak the truth

They tell my heart to back down
And my mind holds onto your deceit
And with my broken heart
I have no choice but to surrender

I wish I knew how to stop them
I wish I didn't have to frown
The feelings that hold me captive
The lies that tear me down