Rants..

Left Overs.

I'm a kid who grew up with divorced parents. Yeah something thats semi normal.

My mother and I.. Well that's just words that shouldn't come out of my mouth, not even typing as it is.

My Mother is a decent person if you meet her. But only 5 people see her true colors after enough shots and hours of arguing.

I believe that my mother sees me and my brother as "Left overs" and "Mistakes". We came from a fucked up marriage that shouldn't have happened.

My mother is now in a realtionship with my step-dad and has had my little sister with him.

My mother asks me why I keep myself in my room she asks why I am so sad. But little does she know she is the reason why. She doesnt know it but the lack of attention given to me and when given is because of wrongly accused is something that can ruin a child.

Her childish ways make a thirteen year old kid sound like a thirty-five year old woman. I've grown up so much I don't remember the last time I was actually able to play.

She's so busy with my sister and when I ask for attention she only says "What do you want me to buy you this time".

But the Only thing that could haunt me to this day is when I heard the words "She's my broken child" escape your lips, I then knew my place.

Thanks Mom.. Really.

(Oct/31/18)