weaken

For you, I could pretend like I was strong when I was hurt

it's not that i don't try,
just that i've tried too many times.

it's not that i'm not serious,
just that you don't take me seriously.

it's not that i'm don't have feelings,
just that you don't ever see them.

it's not that i never cry,
just that you've never seen me cry.

it's not that i can't see,
neither is it that i don't know,
just that it's buried in my heart.

it's not that i don't care,
just that i'm used to it by now.

it's not always the tears that measure the pain,
sometimes it's the smile we fake.