a sadness runs through him

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deans pov

another slow awakening. 

i sat up, rubbing my scarred fingers through my hair. 

i felt extremely nauseous. what did he give me? i must've been too tired to check what it was,,

the dimmed light flickered above me as i felt my stomach roar, needing food.

i squinted my eyes, trying to read the clock on the outside of my two layers. although it was blurry, it read 9:45 am.

rollins, my supposed hero, entered the first layer.

he sat down on the rickety stool, taking out his stupid journal and pen.

" say something. " i slurred my words.

he looked up, " hm? "

" just say something you idiot! " i hissed at him.

" you're cranky, ambrose. "

" don't treat me like a child. "

he didn't say another word after that. i spoke once more.

" why do you even try, rollins? doctors have given up on me. "

" i won't give up dean. "

" we're all humans seth, but each and every one of us that's locked up has a cancer in them that even chemo can't fix. you're the chemo seth. you can't fix me. "

i noticed he was writing everything i said, only making me frustrated. i refused to respond anymore.

i curled up on the floor, my back to him. 

he tried talking to me more but i refused to give a single hint of interest. 

" i need a response ambrose. "

...

i could hear the writing of the pen on paper. 

" when are we getting breakfast ?? " my stomach growled more. i felt like it would start eating me.

" 10:30. " he said.

" you're gonna make me wait that long ?! "

" hey, i don't make the schedules. " 

god his voice. i couldn't take it right now with this damned headache.

he kept looking at me and writing shit down.

" diaries are lame. " i told him, only for him to respond with,  " it's a journal, not a diary. "

i laughed, " thats what that greg guy said in that movie. it was a diary, that is a diary, you cant tell me otherwise."

he just rolled his eyes at me and continued writing despite me teasing him.

i laid down on my side, sighing as my eyes lowered again.

im crazy. im insane. im depressed.

no one understands me, not even rollins.

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