Ae dil hain mushkil - shivika ff

12. Not Done Yet!

Anika's POV:

It was a tiring day, though not physically. After I ran away from him, I didn't see him again. I could finally get some peace. I need some time to take things out of my head and to think. Later we went to Nandu's home. Everyone loved the lehanga, especially Karthik.

There were so many preparations yet to be done for the marriage but we were most concerned with tomorrow's mehandi. I helped Nandu in selecting her Mehandi's outfits and jewellery. We left after having dinner.

In all this hustle, I forgot talking to Shivu. The only thing that kept me sane was, she was in safe hands. If keeping her away from Shivaay needs me, being away from her, I was ready to do that. After this marriage, I would make it up to her. After this, nothing could separate my daughter from me.

Just 5 days more and this will all be over. I told myself to stay strong. I was sure that I could pass through this hurdle too.

I reached home and took a long hot shower. Adi informed me that Shivu was asleep and assured me that she was fine, so that he would bring her home tomorrow. I was already feeling that ‘ajeeb si bechaini' and pleaded him to get her here as soon as possible.

I saw the time and it ticked 30 minutes past eleven. Adi reassured me that he would stay with her all night. I accepted hesitantly. I was eager to see my baby, eager to touch her and kiss her. My michmichi would disappear only after I could watch her heart melting smile.

I tiredly dragged myself to bed, snuggling in to my bedsheet. I didn't know for long I gazed at my ceiling. I was habituated to narrate at least one ‘Bed time stories' to Shivu, otherwise she wouldn't let me sleep. Sometimes, when I wanted to sleep without a story, she being a drama queen would make a big fuss out of it. That was our routine.

And today, I miss her so much. I got up and picked up that book. I would read myself a story. Suddenly, I heard a knock.

I sauntered to the door wondering who it could be. It was daima.

"Woo... bitiya aap se milne koi aaya tha" She told, yawning.

“Iss waqt?” I asked her puzzled.

“Kya main Karthik babu ko jagau?”

“Nai nai. Sab log bahot thak gaye the.”

“Ji. Woh neeche hai"  She turned away lazily.

“Daima! Unhe mere room mein bhej dijiye. Mein kisi ko bhi jagana nai chahthi hoon" She nodded and walked away.

I set my crumbled blanket, searching for my white dupatta when I heard a small thud. I pulled it from under my pillow and looked back, wrapping it around my neck. My eyes widened and my mouth fell opened with stunned surprise at the sight. He was the least expected one to be here.

I stood there still, motionless and felt difficult to breathe. It felt as if, looking at him, had knocked every wisp of air from my lungs and I stood there struggling to inhale , to exhale , to do anything.

Why was he here? What if anyone see him? What would I tell them? I felt my legs tremble.

I suddenly saw a glint in his eye as if he knew what was happening inside me. I had to act quick.

I reached him in a flash and pulled him inside , locking the door behind him.

“What are you doing here?” I hissed, turning hastily.

“Calm down" he smirked.

“What?” He scared me to death just now and wanted me to calm down. Really? “Get out!” I almost shouted.

“Shhhh" He hushed, trying to catch my arm. “Do you want everyone to wake up?”

“Just go away" I moved away from him.

“Wait" he squeezed my shoulders gently. “Calm down. I am here...”

“why you are here!?" I jerked away from his touch. But he held my arm tightly and twisted it, pulling me close to him. I slammed right in to his well built torso, our faces stopping inches away.

“Shhhhh" His scent fanned my face, making me weak in the knees. He tucked a strand of hair behind my ear, which was not giving him a clear view of my face. I could feel my heart beat, every single pound in my chest. I swallowed that hard lump that was forming in my throat.

He hated those loose strands always. He felt they never allowed him to take a proper look at me. He cleared other strands out of his way, releasing my arm. He moved closer again, his lips brushing my ear. Chills ran down my spine and I shivered.

“Breathe" He whispered. His comforting  voice made me forgot how to breathe suddenly.

“Do it" He ordered. I breathed slowly in and out, leaning against his body, my head resting on his shoulders. He wrapped his arms around my waist and I did the same in return.

We were still for a few seconds before he slid his palms tenderly up my waist, then my arms. He lifted up my chin, making me look into his deep blue eyes. His warmth seeped into me and I melted into them like an ice cream. He always comforted me without ever opening his mouth. His touch was enough to keep me calm.

For a second, It felt like old times, taking away my worry for Shivu.

Shivanya!

Her thought revert me back to reality. This was not any old time. It couldn't be. Everything changed since then. Then how could I feel this?

Sudden anger burned in my every vein for what I realized what I did. I pushed him away and he stumbled back. I leaned against the door, supporting myself, neither to cry nor to burst out.

I struggled every second not to allow him to do this to me yet I was always giving in. Giving in to our closeness. It made me feel disgusted. To not being able to stay strong. I could hear the voice of repulsion in my head. It was feeling anger, hurt, disgusted for being weak again. I had to try harder.

“Why are you here?” I inhaled deeply “What do you want?” My calm composure back.

“Anika!” He stepped forward “How have you been?”

“What?” I stared at him in surprise.

“I know you are lonely without me" He moved, placing his palm gently on my cheek and stroked it.

Tears welled up in my eyes but I don't think he meant what he said.

“Ahhh! So now you remember?” I stopped when he opened his mouth to speak.

“I wanted to talk to you about this since the day I first saw you, Anika" I looked into his eyes. They were calm and cold as usual but missing the specks of sincerity whenever he speaks.

I agree he knew every inch of my skin and soul. He was forgetting that even I knew him too well to fall for his drama “Look am not in any mood to talk to you nor listen to you. So please leave"

“Anika! Listen to me once" he pleaded.

“If you are here for this non sense talk, am sleepy. So, Good night Shivaay"

“No. Am here to take the jewellery”

“Which jewellery?” I asked confused.

“The same which you forgot to give Nandu before you left" It stuck my mind. Maa gave me our ‘pushtaini kangan’ to give her which she has to wear in mehandi.

“Oh Shit!”

“You learnt cursing" He flashed his heart swelling smile at me “Great!”

I smiled watching him smile “Good for me!” I handed him the purple velvety box of bangles.

“Thank you. And sorry for disturbing you late at night" He said, taking it. “But We Are Not Yet Done. GOOD NIGHT" He walked closer and pecked on my forehead and left.

A/N: Hey guys,
          First of all I am so sorry for being a month late. I remember I promised to be regular but I had sudden exams.

Now that I am back, I really wanted to give you a nice Shivika chapter. I hope you like this.

Will Anika fall for Shivaay's trap? What do you think?

Leave me your comments. Love you for all your support.

Yours
Trushnamallipudi ❤