Ae dil hain mushkil - shivika ff

10. Where he still affects me

Anika's POV:

Now we are even. We are strangers, aren't we? According to him. For a second I couldn't control my laugh, looking at his face. He seemed really pissed. And I wanted to piss him anymore if I could because by hook or crook I got to know his intentions.

Nandu came back after her call and sat quietly.

“It was karthik, right?” I could easily tell by that pinkish tinge on her cheeks. She blushed more intensely.

“Anika! I really think that guy is interested in you" She pointed someone across our table.

I knew she was trying to divert the topic but I turned to see him when that guy grinned widely at me, and winked.

“Omg! He just winked at you" Nandu chuckled. “You have got a lot of followers, nanad ji"

I smiled uneasily feeling his deep blue eyes on me. I could see through the corner of my eye that his jaw was tensed, his fist curled up tight as if he would beat up that guy in any moment now.

Why did that affect him so much? If any one likes me or not. It was none of his business, right? Then why? My heart had an instant answer. He couldn't forget me. Like the same way I couldn't.

I didn't want to, but it happened. My hand automatically reached his fist, under the table. I squeezed it gently. His muscles eased and held my fingers firmly as if he would never let me go.

I stared in to his eyes shocked only to meet pure concern and love in them. My heart beat raced and I could clearly hear it pounding. His look just proved that he still likes me. And every moment of ours in the past played in my mind. May be he was here to apologise? Just may be. That mere thought made me weak all of a sudden. I had enacted this scene many times after our separation but to face it real was much harder than I had imagined. Because how much ever I make myself hate him for what he did, I knew I could never completely do that. I was scared that I would forgive him so easily.

“Your bill, sir”

The waiter’s voice snapped me to reality and I pulled my hand out of his grip. Why was I even dreaming? I could never think of this heartless man being sorry for me. He never loved me the way I did. If he did, he would never had thrown me out of his life. I glanced away, clearly embarrassed for what I just did. I was a fool to let myself still care for him.

He had got no right to make me feel this way. I could feel my eyes filling up. I suddenly felt suffocating. I need to clear my mind. But sitting right beside him, it was impossible. I wanted some distraction RIGHT now.

“I will pay the bill" I announced and hurried to the reception as fast as I could. I walked very slowly taking long deep breaths,  calming myself down. I paid the bill but I was in no mood to go back. So, I messaged Nandini that I wanted to be at the gaming section until she finished.

There were hundreds of kids of all age groups. Some of them playing hard to win as if it was a real battle. Some of them enjoying while they played with their parents. I stood there, a small smile appearing on my face. It was always refreshing to watch children. And now when I have one, I very well know how it is. Shivanya had always been my escape route for my pain.

“Hey" a voice beside called me. To my surprise, he was the guy across our table. Oh god! Can men stay away from my life? I was already exhausted.

I smiled without a word. A very unwelcoming smile. If he was intelligent, he would have gone by now.

“You are beautiful” he complimented with a wide grin. This wasn't obviously a sentence to say after a hello. Sure! He was dumb.

“Thank you" I quickly turned my mind on the kids.

“May I know your name?” He asked a second later. Why wasn't he leaving? I was clearly showing my disinterest.

“Anika"

“Nice name.” He paused “Can I have your number?”

“What?” I almost squealed.

“I can see you don't want to talk now. But may be if we could talk later. Sooo...?”

I stared at him in disbelief. Everything was testing my patience today. I didn't want to make a scene or else my answer would be Chandini.

“I...”

“Shall we leave darling?” A hand grabbed my waist, pulling me closer, his familiar warmth cocooning me. Shivaay! My heart answered. I blinked at him unable to speak. He glared at the guy and within a second he disappeared.

I pushed him away, stumbling back.
“Don't..touch... me" I stuttered, fighting my tears. Without waiting for his reply, I ran to the parking lot.

A/N: Hey guys,
          I know I am very late. It's been three months since the last update. I have been clearing my mind just like Anika. So I needed some time. Some own space. And I almost figured it out.

So now that am back, just hope for frequent updates. And I promise to give them.

I hope you are loving this track. Any suggestions, just leave me a comment or dm me anytime. Thank you every one for your constant support.

So how will anika battle her inner turmoil?

What is Shivaay upto?

Yours
Trushnamallipudi ❤