Seeing someone you loved move on is so fucking hard.
Seeing them act the way did about you with someone else stings.
Seeing them use nicknames you thought were yours with someone else is like being stabbed in the back.
Time is supposed to heal, but somehow I'm still hurting.
I genuinley fell for them. Believed we'd last forever. Ive never fallen for anyone so hard. I was genuinely in love.
I can't even be mad at them bc they did nothing wrong, it was all a matter of circumstance.
Just when I think I've moved on too I see something and get upset.
It's been 3 months Now and I'm still not completely over us.
Even before there was us in the romantic sense we were best friends...
We'd talk everyday and still had our connection.
Now I feel awkward talking to you, awkward even messaging because I fell myself you don't really care anymore and to be honest I actually think maybe that's true.... u atleast don't care as much as you used too. That's a fact.
Oh look it's not even 6am and.ive got myself crying, this is fun.
Its not totally the fact I lost my gf, it's the fact I feel like I lost my best friend I cant get over. We used to know every detail of eachother's lives, everything we were doing or that happened, now I know nothing. We can go weeks without talking now and we used to talk at every opportunity we could get. You may say we r still best friends but I doesn't feel like we r anymore and it still breaks my heart.
Idk if u even use wattpad still and I pray u don't see this.
I'm sorry I can't get over this. I'm sorry I'm writing this. I'm sorry I'm a mess and I'm sorry we ever dated.
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