Before she left the airport, she gave me her drawing for me to sign, then gave me another one, she claims to not remember drawing it but I did. It was a picture of us eating ive cream, which brought a tear in my eye. Then she asked me to say something inpsirational so she can record and upload it for fans to see, so as she pressed record, I stared at the camera squinting, giving it a smolder.
"No matter who hurts you or judge you, I'll always be there, I love you with all myjeart. To the moon and back, without you, I wouldnt be me, a single comment or even a like makes me smile. Please dont hurt yourself." I pointed at the lense, we hugged goodbye and that was the ladt time I saw her. When I arrived in my room, I tossed my luggage to the side and belly flopped on my bed, too tired to record a video. Instead I decide to look through old family photos my mom mailed me before I left for college, many of which contained Felisha and I spending time together, the good times to when she needed hugs. Time passes by and Adam(Sky) calls me to record a video with him and his friends. Since I haven't been uploading, I held my head high and got started.
"Hey guys sky here, I'm here with; Bajan, Fluffy, Deadlox and CaptainSparklez. Today we're playing cops'n robbers with the smart moving mod!" Adam exclaimed his regularly obnoxious intro. I start as the warden, Mitch and Jerome in one cell them Adam and Deadlox in the neighboring cell. The guys do their normal shenanigans while I think about how Felisha use to tell me how much she loved this series. Later I finally let them out of their cells to lead them into the kitchen still in silence.
"I feel like the warden is pretty quite, what's going on?" Deadlox got suspicious. Mitch and Jerome suddenly start punching him, Jerome shouts,
"NONE YOUR CONCERN!" Next Mitch punches Jerome stopping him,
"Wait, maybe we should tell them." After they explained everyone my back story, I starte crying as Adam and Deadlox were dead silent. I'm faced down to the counter, my arams covering in front as I hiccuped sobbing. Adam gets up from his mic and silently screams angrily, Deadlox is sti silent as if he left the room. Moments later after editing and uploading, I read some hateful comments and blocked them. Scrolled down to see some supportive comments then I came across Felisha's comment, instantaneously I liked her comment the read it.
"You'll be okay, I'm trying to remember I reaaly am, but don't worry, eventually I'll get it back. Look at the bright side, at least i'm not crying anymore. Because of your videos and all these other youtubers, I no longer self-harm, cry myself to sleep,etc. Thank you for all your effort, sympathy and hard work, keep it up " I replied back,
"Thank you, keep on trying because I need you back in my life. This may seem creepy or not. But I'll spent every waking moment thinking about you, creating these bad scenarios in my head and blaming myself because I let you go. Why did I? Knowing that that you're safe and happy is basically my fuel for my fire. Just please promise me this, dont get into any trouble, think before you act. I love you, I dont want you to get hurt." All she said was,
"Can't promise you that."and "I love you too <3"
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My Big Brother(captainsparklez fanfic)
Fanficthis is my longest yet, anyways, this is a story about an orphan whose lifeis about to change. The name's Felisha, my new life wont be all fantastic after, well, you'll just have wait and see
