CHASING LOVE || English

CHAPTER 3 (The decision)

I COUDN'T SLEEP, it's 2 am in the midnight. whenever I close my eyes I couldn't stop thinking about what he said, about his plan, about ruining their relationship. Yes, about jerome and Kate 's relationship. "I have a plan" he said and it kept whispering in my ears. "If you are agree, call me" he handed me his calling card and now I am looking at it. I got up and did a crossed sit, recalling the time when we talked on the rooftop.

"What is your relationship with Kate?" I asked him. He came closer and put the jacket on me then he looked up the sky while he put his hands inside his pockets of his pants. I was facing the door and he was facing the terrace.

"kate is my childhood friend" he pointed. "She started avoiding me after I confessed my feelings to her and got rejected". he continued. My expression changed, I suddenly felt sad. "But i don't want to give up, because I love her" he sounds unhappy.

"Even she loves someone else?" i asked.

"As long as I love her, I won't give up"

"So ruining the relationship is your solution"

"There's no other solution"

"I can't" I answered.

"Why?"

I faced him and he already stared at me while his ayes are wondering.

"I just can't" I answered and about to walked out on him.

"I hate to say this but, didn't kate ruined your relationship with jerome?" My feet automatically stopped. "Tell me, is it fair?......... I know that you know the reason why jerome fell in love with Kate" he continued.
My body stuck, I can't move, my knees are shaking at the same time. Here I am again, couldn't say anything when the truth came. I felt that he's coming near me and I saw a calling card handed over me. "if you are agree, call me" he said. I was just looked at the calling card a seconds before I accepted it.

I close my eyes thinking of those things. When I opened, kyoo's jacket hanging in a cabinet door handle caught my eyes. I still can't decide.

I'm walking my way to the room but I stopped when someone blocked my way. He is cute and tall, wearing glasses but not neird, he smiled and hand over me a box of Ferrero chocolates.

"For you, please accept it" he said in romantic way.

"Sorry, I don't eat chocolates" I replied without any reaction then I left.

I don't accept any gift from the guy i didn't know, well I'm not that close to the boys here and everyone knows that.
When I reached the room my eyes caught the direction where kyoo is sitting while I walked slowly entering the room. he was reviewing his notebook. I sat down and put my notebook in my desk but he stays unbothered. I am wondering if he waited my call and got mad on me. I did not sleep well and felt sleepy so it made me yawned.

"Seems like you did not sleep" he said. I stopped quickly, but he is still reviewing. I did not answer and opened my notebook instead, I heard his smirked. "If you call me, I will tell you my plan" he noted. Why he sounds like he is teasing me? He is really serious to get her but why we have a different feelings? Yes I still love jerome like how she loves kate but it made me felt coward to not fighting my feeling for jerome. So am I  coward?

"I can't" I answered. He did not say anything. Then the prof. Came.

When I caught them laying naked on the bed, we both shocked. I slapped him hard while crying, kate was quiet and shaking. I run but jerome did not chase me. Despite of that I came near him and told him that I was going to forgive him and started over again  but he just apologized. I felt someone stabbed me behind my back. How could he do that to me?
1 year passed but it felt like it happened yesterday.
Everyday I thought of that. I can't moved on, I always felt alone even when I'm not.

"Emi?" My reverie stopped when someone called my name. I'm surprised that it was kate. I stood up from sitting on the bleacher.

"What do you want?" i asked without any expression.

"I saw you,  you were alone" she answered. What kind of answer was that? She came near me because I am alone, it doesn't make sense for me. "Why aren't you with your friends?" she asked.

"I am not always with my friends but can you tell me what do you want from me?" i replied.

"I-i just want to say sorry" she said. Why is she Apologizing? For what? "because of me you are broken, I did not have a chance to apologize you last year but----

"It's too late" I cut her words. She sounds concerned but I slowly figured it out why she was talking to me. Its not for an apology, she want to ask me to stay away from jerome.

"I know it will be painful for you but, please       don't ever come     near     him" she said and I knew it.

"So you are asking me to stay away from him" i cleared. She nodded. "Why should I? Who are you to asked me a favor like that?" i said. but still without any expression. She looked confused.

"I'm his gf"

"But you're not his wife" I pointed. She looked surprised from what I said.

"Wha-what do you mean?"

"It's not because you are the gf you have the right to asked me the unnecessary favor" I did 2 steps to come closer to her. "Remember? I was his gf, you knocked the door without my permission, do you think I will obey what you were asking for?" i looked at her intensely, she avoided It and couldn't answer me directly then I left her speechless.

I did not notice the tears came out from my eyes while my heart beating fast cause of pain. I walked while had no idea where should I go, until kyoo appeared on my mind. I took out my phone from my bag "I decided, I now finally decided!" I said to myself. I'm holding kyoo's calling card then dialed his number, I pressed the call and it was ringing then he finally picked up my call.

"Hello" he answered.

"Where are you?" i asked him directly. He paused before he answered, I know he was surprised.

"At the rooftop"

I run fast and went upstairs while held my phone in my left ear, we did not end the call.
When I finally reached the rooftop he was standing while leaning on the terrace, held his phone while his one hand inside his pocket and he smiled at me seems like he waited for me. I caught some breath, I walked towards him then I ended the call. I stopped.

"So what's the plan?"