toxic love // brandon arreaga

chapter one

i wake up to the sound of my phone vibrating to frantic messages from Austin, Edwin, zion and nick for once not from the beanz, i just wanted to forget last night, i wanted to just cut off everyone, i guess that's what happens when you trust someone

i got up and got dressed for another dull day in school, i don't wanna face anyone especially edwin. i was already late so i walked slowly, i missed form by purpose to avoid edwin, i went to science and my heart stopped, everyone stared at me, zion walked up to me and said "you good bro", i replied so fast with a uncertain yes, i didn't really wanna tell him how i felt about the situation. i went through science with a fake smile hanging from my mouth, it hurt knowing that i would have to face malu in English, she was zion's gf and i trusted her until yesterday, that when i revalued who my true friends were.

i saw malu and Edwin go into the classroom and i felt sick to my stomach, how would i face Edwin and that snake malu, i couldn't do it, i went to the school nurse and managed to  successfully skive the rest of the school.

i got home and went straight  to my room, these words were running through my head, "tryna turn away but i cant seem to let it go". i  could relate so badly, i deeped life, my deeping session was interputed by Edwin running into my room "what the fuck bro, why didn't you tell me, i was there for you since day one and you do that, you told that told malu, you've known her for a month and you've already spilled yourself to her, i'm suppose to be your bestfriend and you do me like that ", he sat down and broke down in tears "i could've been here for you", i was in tears i never knew me feeling like this could make ed feel like that, i guess water is thicker than blood, "im so sorry ed but everything malu said was a lie, she just wanted attention, you know how she gets bro", i said that with a full chest, it hurt knowing im lying to my bandmate, should i tell him but what if  it affects the of the future of PRETTYMUCH

i got up and gave him a reassuring hug that i was completely fine but i really wasn't. those words came back "tryna turn away but i cant seem to let it go".