Self-estem is like a very scary roller coaster. You go up, then you go down, well self-esteem is the same. It rises and lowers all the time.
I have low self-esteem, I am always putting my self down over the littlest things such as my drawing and singing. I can't sing, draw play the flute or speak in front of people.
I have severe stage fright. I can't perform in front of others by my self. In band I can't play solos. I am afraid to sing when I know others are staring at me but oddly I still can sing in front of others. I sing at school in the car and other places with people around me but if they are staring straight at me then I am afraid.
I am very self conscious of my self. I am self conscious about my body, drawings, singing and my speaking ability. I know I am not pretty but others say I am. I know I can't sing good or speak well in front of others but people say I do sing good. My drawings are not good they are very crappy. People say they are really good. My hand writing is really sloppy but others say differently.
I hate how so many people say you just have to train your mind to think differently. They say it like it's easy and possible for me but it isn't. I can't sing, draw, play the flute good, or write good. I know I don't but people think otherwise. People say you should just believe in your self, but how can you do that if you know you're bad at something.
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SELF-ESTEEM and other problems I have
No FicciónI am writing this so that I dont bottle up my emotions any more. I don't care if anyone reads this I just needed to let it out and well wattpad is my life so what better way
