Abandoned

Chapter 1

"I'm sorry..."

Her emerald eyes screams despair and sadness. She tried to say some words but failed so. I hurt her I know I did but it'll hurt her more if I continue to lead her on. Telling her the the truth is much better than feeding her with lies and promises that I know deep inside  I can no longer hold. I love her but  not the same as before.

"wh-why?"

I took a deep sigh. I slowly look at the ground , closed my eyes and clenched my fist. I can't look at her directly. The guilt is slowly killing I need to let it out before it consumes me completely.

"I love her , Cara."

And with that simple sentence she cries. I hear her sniffles and her muffled agony. 

"what about our kids, Evan? Chris is still young; His only 8 years old for Christ sake!"

"I ca-"

"And if you have forgotten I'm pregnant with our second child!"

Yes, that's right, she is still carrying our little princess. I look at the bump on her stomach that indicates the little being inside of her. Slowly growing waiting to see the outside world.

" I'll give them financial assistance. I'll still take care of them but i won't be here anymore."

I can't continue living in a house that i can no longer call home. My home is with Jamie. She provides me things that Cara failed to deliver. I can see a great future with Jamie.

"Please, don't...."

My eyes widen as I saw her on her knees as if she's worshipping me.

"I beg you.. don't leave me.. Us.."

She choked on her own words and that broke my heart. I wanna carress her cheeks and mutter sweet nothings to her ear wanting her to calm down and to stay strong.

I put that thought back to my mind. I love Jamie, that's it. I only feel pity for Cara; afterall she is still the mother of my kids. I convince myself. I also get on my knees and kissed her forehead. I place my forehead to hers. I feel her breath and I hear her heart slowly breaking.

"I'm.. sorry... I-"

Slap!

"Sorry? Can your sorry ease the pain you've given me!? Can your sorry bring back the trust!? I can't believe I beg you to come back to me.. I don't know what I was thinking!!! I don't need your pity Evan! I've stayed faithful to you.. I gave you everything I can to be a perfect wife.. I gave up my career to be a housewife; to take care of you.. I know your cheating ways long ago, Evan. Im not stupid.. I saw the signs wa- way before. But I closed my eyes. I don't wanna believe in it.. I still hoped I'm just paranoid or Crazy..."

She gasps for air as she continues to cry. She stood up and look at me as tears continue to fall. I felt water coming out of my eyes. God, I might be crying too. I can't answer because all she told me was true.  She never gave me reason to cheat on her; I looked for reasons.

I stand up and take a step towards her but she step back. I raised my hand tp wipe her tears but she flinched.

"Don't touch me... Just.. Don't.."

I can hear my heart break all of the sudden. She turn her head and said the most heartless words I never thought she'll say to me..

"I hate you.. Don't come back.."

She stroke her pregnant belly and starts to climb the stairs. She stops in the middle.

"Maybe we really aren't for each other.. I should've accepted that long time ago... It's already 11pm and I need to rest. I wish when I wake up you're no longer in this house and in our life.. Just send me the divorce papers."

Crash!

My heart breaks. I look up in the ceiling to control my tears. I grab my luggage and heads toward the door. As soon as I step outside... A new life begins. I ride my car and drive to Jamie's house.. My New home..