Lost and Found- Thomas Sanders Sander Sides x Child Reader(Son, Daughter, Child)

Chapter 18

TW: Panic Attacks

Logan P.O.V.

Y/N had now calmed down so I think we can figure out how we're going to take down deceit. I don't know what to do for once in my life, do we tell Thomas for the first time what's happened in the past couple minutes, or hours I don't really know how long it's been? Not knowing, because I'm logic, is the worst feeling (yes. feELinG, uhh). I'm supposed to know everything even more than Thomas, but if I don't know something, then what am I. The bane of my existence, along with feelings is not knowing.

Anyways I think that I should probably, we all should probably go to Thomas and tell him what happen along with Y/N and show Y/I to Thomas.

Then we can figure out what to do about Deceit unless Deceit is gone for now, why would he I don't really know but I hope he's gone for good. He's hurt Y/N too much.

Virgil P.O.V.

When Y/N starts to calm down Logan monotonely states "I think we should probably get going to Thomas." We all nod our heads agreeing and I can just see the happiness on Patton's face now that he had his child, Y/N, back.

I wish I could feel his happiness but all I am is anxiety so I can't feel any of it. I just feel the sad not the sadness but the just the constant worrying and pain of everyone and I feel terrible that my child, no our child, Y/N, has the feel the same. Y/I have to deal with the fear that drives Thomas' Anxiety. Now, what I'm trying to say here, mind I'm not good with feelings, I don't know anymore just never mind I said anything but is just my thoughts so what's "like I'm saying anything" to anyone I'm just talking in my head this is really weird now I'm just, it's a constant loop as I'm talking to myself in my head but am I really talking to myself. I don't really know what to do just never mind whoever is listening if anyone is I doubt anyone is cause I'm stuck myself this is really weird yeah OK I'm just gonna yeah just never mind.

We sink out to Thomas where Thomas looks at us with shock and confusion questioning why we're there. And then he sees Y/N and is filled with confusion and shock. Then I feel my anxiety rising along with Thomas' and I feel a panic attack coming on so I try to calm myself down but at this point I know it's not gonna work because Thomas is having a panic attack as well. When Thomas has a panic attack I have a panic attack but when I have a panic Thomas does not always have a panic attack. Wow a lot of panic attacks. wait what am I talking about wait what is Thomas think of Y/N what is what is your name what it what what wait wait I'm so confused on Y/N Thomas Thomas Y/N Y/N Thomas Y/N what what was Y/N I am. I don't know!

Roman P.O.V.

I see Virgil start to breathe heavier and Thomas aswell and I'm questioning what's going on. I start to realize Virgil and Thomas are both having a panic attack. Great! What better timing could Panic! At the Everywhere have a panic attack? I mean really Virgil pick a better time. See this is why we broke up because We just can't do you anymore, you're just to much. What has come over me. I loved Virgil, I still do. What am I thinking? I feel terrible. What was that from I don't know, but why am I so bad? I don't understand I probably should help. I look over to Virgil and start to say relaxing things to him trying to calm him down but it's no use. He's continuing to get worse and worse and it's not helping. Pat goes over to Thomas while Logan just stands there cause he's not good with feelings, he trying and getting better but we don't want to make it worse like he accidentally did at the surprise party, Virgil's surprise party, when we all were 12 (note to self do not plan surprises for Virgil). I'm kind of confused on what to do now. Should I tell Thomas about Deceit or Y/N or something. I don't know what to do with my life where is the stuff coming from. Why am I going on these rants. I am Roman. Creativity. Composed. I am the prince why am I falling apart, I cannot let anyone notice I must stay strong. I am a prince I must fight for everyone I am Roman. I am strong.

But I am also confused.