"don't want to fucking be here anymore"Ella sobbed I sat down next to her"what am I ment to do with out you Ella?"everyone looked so confused I was the only one that knew about her suicide attempts.
(flashback)
I ran up the stairs blood drops stained the cream carpet tears pouring down my face "ELLA STOP"I screamed as I got to her room. Ella was sitting on the window ledge she was ready to jump she had cuts everywhere I couldn't let her do this so I grabbed her arm"I'm not gonna let you jump Ella"I cried she looked at me confused "please I have to"I tried to pull her away from the window but she wouldn't move "fine if you go then so am I"I shouted she looked so shocked"you would take your own life for me?"I nodded "of course Ella you mean everything to me"she move away from the window and I pulled her into a tight hug.
(back to normal time)
I was lucky to still have her here she's like a sister to me we were only 12 when the first attempt happened."if you leave i'll have to as well" she looked at me "Olivia I can't let you leave" I hugged her "please stay I'll miss you you're my only hope"she looked at her cuts in disgust I could tell she regreted doing it she hasn't cut in about 3years she tried to stand up but she couldn't Calum rushed to help her you could see they both liked each other He was sweet and funny and single.
Michael and Zoe helped Ella clean her cuts we all decided to have a sleepover we put on a movie and tired to forget what just happened Ella sat between me and calum Michael was on my left. I could feel him watching me but every time I looked he would stare at his hands and blush he was so adorable I want to be with him so badly.the movie finished and It was getting late we all got pillows and blankets because we were gonna sleep in the living room.someone threw a pillow at my face I think it was Luke cos he was the first to laugh I threw it back at him then Michael hit calum we had a huge pillow fight.
the morning came along fast and I stretched everyone was still asleep it was pretty early suddenly someone hugged me from behind I turn to see Michael wideawake "you're so fucking beautiful"he shouted "did I just say that out loud?"he covered his eyes "yes Mikey you did"I giggled."Are you coming to see us preform tonight?"he asked "wait what who?"I was confused"my band silly 5 seconds of summer"Michael laughed "you're in a band that's so cool yeah I'll come" I smiled "who's in it?"I asked "just me,Luke,Calum and Ashton"he said with a smile.
it was 7:30 and the concert was starting soon we all got ready I had light blue vans ripped shorts and a crop top with bananas on it.we all arrived at the venue it was pretty big a group of girls that look about 14 were outside as well making the strangest noises "I'm gonna marry Michael" one of them screamed Ashton and Luke couldn't help but laugh I was bright red the girl stared I feel like i know her some how i looked at her again and she just gave me a small smile then looked away.
once everyone was inside Luke walked on stage followed by Ashton and Calum but where was Michael Ella looked at me and mouthed "where is Michael"? I just srugged then Michael ran on stage suddenly everyone was screaming "hii we're 5 seconds of summer thanks for coming out here to see us tonight"Luke shouted I crowd went mad I really didn't realise how popular they were.They played a few songs I really enjoyed voodoo doll and English love affair we made our way back stage to find the boys all on the floor "you guys are amazing"Zoe sang "thanks babe"Luke wiggled his eyebrows "you're so cute lukey"Zoe giggled.suddenly there was a knok at the door...
