Deep Poems

Life

Life is something that you can't seem to wrap your head around. 
Always seeming to deprive you of something

But what concerns me the most is the way it leads you on.

It gives you good, amazing, wonderful things;

Only to have them be ripped out from under you.

To me, life isn't a good thing.

I struggle with too much everyday

Always wishing that things could get better

But it doesn't.

It's all an illusion.

So i just place on my fake smile and fake laugh and live life like a robot

Not having the ability to feel.

I used to be happy once

Where i didn't need to worry about how i was going to make ends meet

But even that caused pain

I was abused, scarred, tormented all throughout my life

That's something that can never go away.

And the worst part is,

I get made fun of because of it.

They're not people from my school

Most of them.

It's the outside world that leaves people shattered beyond repair.

That's what i feel like.

Like i can't be fixed

Like i am wothless

But i still put on that fake smile and persona

Hoping that one day things will get better

Which is all a lie.