How to be me in my daily life...
I have never been like, everything changed when got my first period of anger when I was little, and I had decision anxiety which made it hard for me to decide daily things it could be what to wear for tomorrow or just if I wanted to say something really important. It could be that simple and I don't really know if that.
I want to be myself, I'm grateful for all the help I got, I want to grow at my own now, we don't have time or motivation to fight each other.
I don't know if I should tell her about this more deeply or if I should avoid anymore fight because she's lacking of energy and mood, she knows that I love her even if we fight quite often, but it makes the day more stressful and more pain for the other things I have in mind and I'm sorry for my behavior towards you if you think I'm angry or irritate at mornings. I'm trying my best to be a positive mood, but I do have better or less good nights with sleep and without.
You have to understand my options and style at my own, I want to decide at my own and take my own responsibility even if I skip fixing the bed more or less, does not mean I'm not growing as a person it might take more time but I want to learn from my mistakes.
You often speak about personalty how I should act or how I should be, I get very upset and annoyed that I can't be myself and be someone else, please let me go I want to try at my own if I fail I tried at least.
I'm telling this once again...
Yes I'm grateful for all support I got so far from you and is open for more help but at this moment I want to try at my own to change the way I want and what I prioritize, The problem I don't dare to talk about this with you... even if we knew each other for a very long time.
I'm sorry.
