Once home my mom and brother started to get on me about my weight and how I was big and needed to lose weight so to zone then out I put on my earphone listening to some sad ass songs when I called Quonisha and told her how I was feeling and she better me that I wouldn't post something on instagram that I regret to this day basically saying how if my friend Sam was getting on my nerves and if she didn't I was going to fight her but what Quonisha never realized was that I already knew she wanted to see me fail which is a reason I didn't let her meet my family cause they can spot fake friendship in a second. Though I wished I didn't post what I did it was half true I was frustrated with how Sam was acting that day and school and then my family started to frustrated me and Quonisha egging me on and my songs having me in my feeling had me in the moment. Then after posting it my friend Kecell texted me and we had a conversation that went outta hand and I felt that I was getting basically attacked though I knew deep in my heart he wasn't trying to make me feel that way but was just trying to find out what was going on I basically took off on him which I regret to this day, and not just that but I made the friend that knew me so well and been with me for 5 year block me and leave my side and I ended up blocking the only guy I cared about with all my being, but even so I was so stubborn that I just couldn't appoligize. Anyway when ever someone asked me about Sam I just took off and started to talk shit though in my heart I was saying something totally different though everyone knew to never say anything bad about her and Kecell to my face cause though they wasnt talking to me no more doesn't mean I ain't still have there back through thick and thin. Though there was one person who kept going on telling me how Sam was doing this and that toward me and how I should fight her and this was the twins who I mentioned in the first chapter sister Vanessa a fake ass snake how who skittered her way in my head and when I went to ask Sam if she ever did this she denied and I believed her because it's just not like her so I stopped hanging out with the twins and there sis Vanessa. Then this snake ass bitch Vanessa decided that all of a sudden she wanted to become good friends with Sam though not even a week ago she was telling me how she didn't really fuck with Sam on a friendly level but its ight she will get what coming. Anyway I just couldn't face Sam and Kecell anymore cause when I look in the face it makes my regret grow and because when I asked Quonisha for help to talk to Kecell she told me he said ight but in a voice that said he really wasn't interested which made me wanna cry no lie but then I felt like Quonisha never really asked him but its what ever.
2 months later
I have stopped hanging out with Quonisha and am hanging out with someone who gives me a better vibe her name is Destiny but I call her Dest she a chill person who I like to hang with she isn't negative or nothing and can give some pretty good advice when she gets to understand certain thing. Also no I haven't gotten what happened two months ago outta my Head I'm trying to start over though this girl Beverly in my 1,2,3,6 period classes is getting in my nerves she tries to butt into my condo when ever she can ,and I seem to never get no peace at home since my family is still getting on me about my weight which has me no lie think about different things like losing weight by going on a diet to suicide though I won't admit it out loud I feel trapped like I'm just her breath and like I ain't really have no purple and the people who made me happy I pushed away and now there only one friend I got left that keeping me somewhat sain is my friend Dest though I don't know how I'mma keep going I'm still pushing forward
More updated coming I'm writing almost everyday and would like y'all opinions.
