La Mia Mafia e L'Alfa Uomo: My Mafia and Alpha Man

Chapter Two

"Be strong because things will get better. It may be stormy now, but it never rains forever."

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Its been a month since I last saw him. Its been a month from our last conversation. And I'm starting to think, that maybe I'm not worthy of his love.

I'm his best friend after all. The best friend whose in love with him ever since. The best friend that still holding on for that slight chance.

A slight chance for him to see me as a lover, as a partner. A shoulder to cry on when he's sad. A shoulder to lean on when he's doubting.

I can give him everything that he desires.

Now, that I'm thinking about it. Why he didn't see me more than a best friend. Is it about my looks? Is it about how I dress? Is it about I'm too shy? Or is it about he can never really love me.

I'm snapped out of my thought when the model I'm currently working asked me if I'm okay.

I just smiled at her and nodded my head.

I'm a freelance make up artist by the way. Its a hobby of mine since I'm a child. I always dress up my dolls and do their hair and put on some make up.

Weird right? I can create a fabulous outcome to someone else but I cant apply it for my own self.

I guess that's how my life is. Doing others to see their beauty and make them beautiful, however I can never do it for me.

Well, this is may be the reason why I'm still single or maybe the love that I have for Alex. He's the reason why I can never look for any guy or date with them.

After 5 hours in the photo shoot and re touching the models faces. Packing my babies and saying good bye. My done job was done.

I went home to our humble adobe. Once I step out of my car I proceeded to unlock the door of the house. I can already hear Charles barking inside excited to see me.

Aunt Tilly wasn't around when I entered our home. I went to the kitchen and get some food for Charles. Putting his dog food in his bowl and refilling some water in case his thirsty.

I grab the left over we had last night from the refrigerator and reheat it in the microwave. The aroma of melted cheese from lasagna filled my nostril and my mouth watered from its smell.

I ate it when its done and went to my room to freshen up. Its been a long day, stripping my clothes and I jump in the shower.

After 20 minutes in the shower I went to my closet and put my comfy clothes. Which consist of my sponge bob pajama short and sweat shirt. I added a knee length socks that emphasized my toe nails. I wiggle it and giggle when I saw the characters of Inside Out appeared.

I seated on table near the window. I can see the garden in our back yard. Aunt Tilly loves gardening specially flowers and any kind of herbal plants.

She said that herbal medicine is the best from the drugs that we bought from the pharmacy. I agree with her. I'm not use to pills or any tablet the doctors giving me when I'm having allergy attacks.

I'm also having a hard time swallowing it. I need 2 cups of water or a cup of orange juice for me to swallow the pill. It taste yucky.

I prefer the herbal meds that Aunt Tilly gave me. Though it taste bitter at first but when you're used to it, it doesn't taste bitter anymore.

Scanning the papers on my table I found a small black envelope with red outline and a gold stamp. I stop a second reaching from it. I already knew what is it. I cant find my self reading it. With a shaky hands I reach and open it.