story from a dark place

Grace.xx (Depressing Girl)

i have been alone for all my life. i grew up in this house alone with my dark thoughts. my parents are barely home. i don't have any siblings. at school, i'm just known as that depressing bitch with no life. i just spend the rest of my time writing in my notebook, writing all the thoughts I always have.

10/23/13

Dear me,

one day i'll make you proud

~ Grace.xx

10/26/13

*random thoughts*

i want someone to be there for me. someone that will understand what i'm going through, someone that will comfort me when i'm feeling so bad. i need someone that will be strong enough to stop me when i'm being too destructive. i hate being alone.

12/13/13

Dear me,

today, i saw her at lunch. she looked really sad. she wasn't around her friends. she didn't even eat she just threw her tray in the trash and sat back down and put her head down. when i was going to the restroom, i heard her crying. she was also talking to herself saying 'she hates herself and why everything is happening to her'. i wanted to talk to her. but i got shy and left. i hope she's okay. i really hate seeing her like this. i really want to know why she was sad.

~ Grace.xx

she has been gone for months. how can she can't be gone. did she really jump? and that note. what did she mean? revenge? but why did she do it?

"Aw look, isn't it depressing bitch," said Louis.
"Shut the fuck up, Louis."
"Little Gracie is defending herself."
"Haha. what are you writing there depressing bitch?" laughed Michelle.
"Nothing!" i shouted. "leave me alone!"
"Michelle, get her notebook." demanded Louis.
"NO, GET AWAY FROM ME!"
"COME ON GRACE, GIVE ME THAT NOTEBOOK!" yelled Michelle.

i struggled to get out of Michelle's grip. then Bryan comes behind and grabs my notebook and throws it at Louis.

"Well, let's read what you have here." said Louis opening my notebook. Then, he started ripping some pages out my notebook one by one.
"STOP! NO!" i cried.

Michelle and Bryan were pulling me, punching my stomach. i couldn't even more. the pain. why couldn't I do nothing? i can't move. Louis is ripping the pages from my notebook. why do i have to be so weak? i look at the ground holding in my tears. i have the urge to scream for help. but i can't. please. someone help me. please...

"HEY, LEAVE HER ALONE. YOU FUCKING JERK!"

i heard someone shout from behind. Louis stop ripping pages out of my notebook. he looks up and laughs.

"Haha, Halloween was months ago." he laughed.
"oh, Mcfatty has jokes." laughed the unknown person.
"what did you call me?" said Louis dropping my notebook to the ground.

Michelle and Bryan let's go of me and pushes me to the ground. i crawled to my notebook and gather all the papers that were ripped out.

"you heard me." they said.

Louis got close to the unknown person. they had a white mask covering half their face, their hair in a bun, and their hoodie half on, covering their ears and the back of their head. they kinda reminded me of someone. but who?

"um... Louis, they have a knife." said Michelle.
"pretty sure it's a fake knife." Said Louis looking at their right hand holding the knife.
"yeah, Michelle. get real." said Bryan.
"ha. you think this fake." they said holding out the knife in their hand. they started waving the knife in front of Louis.