Shit people do/say in relationships

Shiloh

I cant begin to express emotion,
Or feelings,
Or anything.
After what you did to me.

She was everything.
And I gave her up.
Love at first heart beat,
Once I felt it.

Love at first sight isn't anything new/true.
It's a lie,
Because beauty doesn't show the real emotions.

The silence of my room consumes me,
Like being in a field of flowers.
You saying you support me with either choice,
But too chicken to say what was on your mind.

It wasn't my fault the choice wasn't want you wanted.
I can't understand your hatred towards me.
When I already have enough towards myself.

I tried everything for her,
While keeping in my own thoughts.
She was everything, and I didn't see it.

I wish I could take it back,
Maybe you wouldn't have left me.
What was I expected to do?
Continue to wait for everyday to pass?
Wait for the pain and suffering of my depression to consume me?
My tears and suffering meant nothing did they?

I can feel her with me still.
Her forgiveness.
She can't make you come back.
But she can make me come back.
Force myself to see the real me.

What we had was special, I don't disagree.
But the way you treated it,
Wasn't meant to be.

How can you stand to sit there and say "I want nothing to do with you",
When Shiloh was there,
Showing us the surprise,
That maybe we should have.

But I don't feel like we should anymore.
I continue listening to Mr. Brightside,
And as I sit on the edge of my seat,
I begin to wonder why I gave you so many chances.

So many little chances.
For Shiloh.
For her.
For you.