So you guys ever have that point in your life where you like someone and you don't tell them anything because you don't wanna ruin the friendship you already have. Well that's happening right now. SO lets call this guy "J" . I started liking J in 6th grade but we have known each other since 3rd. We would play around during spanish class. The teacher would get mad at us and we'd laugh. We'd always race to ask for the restroom to get out of doing work. We'd spill tea to each other. I never told him I liked him because I didn't want it awkward between us. That's where I FUCKED up. So I moved schools and never told him I liked him. We still had normal conversations on Instagram. He would send me random videos and I would send him random videos. I would send him stuff about anime. So we had good conversations, but I never told him I liked him. I suppressed those emotions. So one day he texts me " Hey I like this girl" I was heartbroken and just said "can I see a pic". SHE WAS SO FUCKING PRETTY. I was like "aww that's cute". I hardly texted him after that. He never dated her. I was like ok whatever. So like one day I texted him a weird video of "My Hero Academia" and he was like "hahaha that's funny". He ends up telling me " hey guess what" and i'm like "what". He says that he got a girlfriend, My heart broke. Since this is on text I text him " Oh send me a picture of her" and just like the other girl she was super pretty. Lets call her "T". He goes like "oh her name "T". I was happy for him of course, but broken at the same time. I was going to visit my old school where "J" is and all my friends. So I go the next week and I'm running to the gate to get there before they get out. The first person I see is FUCKING "J". I was going to say hi but decided not to. well bitch that didn't work he ended up seeing me. He says "AYE IT'S THE HOMIE". I just put on a smile and went along with it. We started to talk for a little bit till more people came out of the gate. I guess his girlfriend walked by and he was like " Hey "A" this is the HOMIE" . She was like "oh hi" I said hi back. She left and we started talking more. I asked him if he saw any of my friends he was like "They might be over here, follow me". So I go and I see my friends they hyped me up told me they missed me and i told them i missed them. So basically we caught up with everything. And I was walking with them and "J" was with us to and all he was saying to us was " BUT DID U GUYS SEE MY GIRLFRIENDS SHE IS A 10/10". It hurt everytime he said it, but it made him happy. My friend told me he is always saying that. I said it was cute that he hyped up and was proud of his girlfriend. I went home heart broken. I just can't get over him. He was like my first real crush. And of course I felt happy for him , but it really hurt every word of it.
Welp that was....nice?.. to get off my chest, so practically that's my love life.
I guess i'm trying to get to the conclusion that i'm gonna live alone and I probably just wasn't the right one for him.
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