The craving in my gut was horrible but the pain in my chest was overwhelming as I looked down at my baby asleep in her car seat. It had taken everything I had to leave Blake. I just knew that he was wrong and that we wouldn't be safe there. I knew I hadn't been doing a good job taking care of my baby girl since I left the pack. I felt it and it made me afraid for her future. So there I was about to do the most horrific thing I could ever think of doing.
I had a drug problem and I knew it. I was not able to take care of her then, not properly. I needed to get up on my feet and kick the cocaine first. I would come back for her. I told myself that in hopes that I would, but I wasn't really so sure as I looked at the track marks on my arms. I wasn't that strong of a person, so I worried that I wouldn't be able to. I wanted better for her than what I could give her at that moment.
I leaned down and stared at her for a moment, memorizing every inch of her sweet little face. I felt the tears starting as my eyes burned. Blinking them back I pinned the note to the car seat and kissed her forehead softly. "Mama loves you Hope." The tears started to fall and I hurried to ring the buzzer and run around the corner to watch.
The door opened and I saw this huge fireman look down and smile at my daughter who was moving around a little in her seat. He looked around for me and I saw him shake his head. He leaned down and picked up the car seat and started cooing to my little angel.
Once the door shut I had to steel myself to turn and leave. The mad craving for drugs superseded my need for everything else and so I turned and went to the part of the city where I knew I could score something that would make me feel better.
Author's note
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WerewolfAbandoned as a baby, raised by the state. Hope doesn't know she is a wolf. When she shifts she finds herself in trouble with the Animal Control and Rogues. She finds her home and family and her mate? However, that doesn't keep her out of trouble. Th...
