A Warrior's Soul

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My past was... a mess, I was always the one who was treated like a stranger, well from my Mother. 

My Father was a caring man, who loved me and william... and he loved our mother dearly, even If she treated me so terrible. But after all he was the king, the ruler of an empire and he was oft distracted with beeing a good king. 

So I was alone with my Mother and william and I felt unloved and unwanted. ... it was so painfull... I hated it so much...

,,Why? William? Don't you see their pain?" I yelled at my Brother who stand beside me emotionless.

 ,,William She sleeps with her own son, She ignores the younges of her sons or making him sing until his throat startes to bleed and she hit the oldes and don't forget that she whant to drown him in the Lake if he refuse." 

,,Sunia it's not our task. Don't let them get closer into your mind. It's not our problem what will happen with the children." he answered me coldly.

 ,,How could you be so cold william! They are children we have to..." I yelled again but he intrupt me ,,We have to do nothing but our job, they are not a part of our family. We are not in the positon to take care of them. They have their Mothers and thier Father its their job and you know that! Don't get involved in things who not concern you." Is voice was absolutly.

 This talk was finished for him ,,Oh screw you william!" I yelled angryly ,, You don't care, okay fine. Its not like that you ever cared. Not about them and not even about me when my mother treats me like I was a stranger. I don't even was a part of our family, even when i was born as her child! They have the same past like me! You know their Mothers are useless, they destroy them!"

 I screamed and grabbed williams arm. Strong enough to break his bones. They cracked and william cursed at me loudly.

 ,,Listen! what will they became later Hm? What don you think william? All they Know is Hate, abuse and pain, what do you think they felt on the inside? They will become Monsters, a risk for themself and for all other beings of our race and even for the Humans. Karl Heinz doesn't care an thes Womens they are the worst.You Know what? I don't care if you will help me or not!" i yelled and turned around to leave him alone.

 ,,Sunia it's okay but don't do anything stupid." was all that william said to me... ah...he changed his mind . ,,you know me ther is no need to worry." I answered while walking away right into the woods.

After a half hour walking I sat down on a Tree trunk to calm down. That Fuck won't leave my bloody mind. 

Why do I have to watch this crap? It's making me sick. My Childhood was nearly the same and for the fiers time i wished me back to the war because it was easier for me to be a soldier.

 As a Soldier i knew always what to do, because i had a clear instruction. This situation was the opposite for me and so difficult, but I knew that this would never happened. The war was over for a long time . 

Oh Mother why do you haunt me like that? I Looked at my left arm, the arm who wasn't mine. ,,Well Fuck! how should I akt? There wer so many different ways." I keep talking to myself deep in my Thoughts. 

It wasen't easy to find a way to help because I only could stay here for 6 Months without the Risk ending up as Karl Heinz fourth wife. ,,Gahhhh!" a loud scream intrupted my thoughts.

 Without thinking twice I started running in the direction. The first thing I saw was a huge Wolf, It was a strong one with grey fur and shining yellow eyes, the second thing I saw was the little brown haired Human from the village near the castle named Edgar.