3:00 Thoughts

I Hate Myself.

I hate myself.

I can't open up to people.

I can't trust people.

if they knew who I really was they'd leave, 

every last one of them.

I hate myself.

I'm not good enough,

I feel like I never will be.

I'm never anyone's first choice,

I'm like an after thought at best.

I hate myself.

I'm dependent on others.

I need constant validation.

I need reassurance.

I have too much self doubt.

I hate myself.

I overthink.

I'm moody.

I have panic attacks for no reason.

I don't feel like living.

I hate myself.

I can't tell anyone any of this,

It's like my mind won't let me.

I'm not happy.

I'm numb.

And there's truly no one I hate more than

 myself.

                             xx infinitetragedy