hi my name is Ember I'm 27. When I was 17 I was raped . This is my story from the beginning of that fateful night to now and how I coped with everything what my parents reaction was and how I move forwards with my life and not let it consum and destroy me which it nealy did. I'm not putting my story on watt pad for a sympathy vote or for people to feel sorry because Ive learned to live with it . I've put it on here so people understand that you can get past it . I this helps one person then at least I can say it helped.Thank You Very
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Shayla came round to mine this morning and asked if I wanted to go out on a shopping with her for tonight because we are going out clubbing . It's my first night out clubbing because I'm only 17. Shayla is 18 she may be older but she is not more mature. God she acts like a five year old sometimes but I love her anyway. Now we've been shopping for about 4 hours my feet are killing me and Shayla had gone back to the first shop we went into to get the outfit she saw from there . Oh My God. The only thing I ended up getting was a pair of purple open toe 3inch heel that match with my dress. When we got home I sit with my mom and dad for about an hour before I head off to Shaylas. I get up off the sofa . My mom and dad are going away for the night . They do this every so often and I always sleep at Shaylas . So it's perfect timing with us going clubbing. I head upstairs after my parents have gone to pack my stuff for my night a Shays.
We are getting ready listening to music and having a laugh. I don't drink just water and pop but tonight I agreed to try a beer or a wine. So we finished getting ready and are heading out the door. We meet our other friends in a pub called The White Lion. When we get there they are already getting the drinks in Rich shouts over to us what do you want to drink Shay had a vodka and coke and I had a vodka lime and lemonade which Rich chose because he said it didn't have a bitter after taste. I liked it but got told not to have to many of them because I would be pissed before we even hit the club. After about an hour and half in the pub we head to club.
Once we're in the club the tunes are banging and the bass is vibrating through the floor. We all find a table and sit around having a laugh like any group of friend do . Acting like total idiots but that's just the way we are together. The club is getting crowded now it's about 11 o'clock. I've had only 3 vodka drinks and stayed on water in between so I'm not doing too badly. I tell Shay im off to the toilet and jason comes with me so he can reileve the trouser snake. He tells me to meet him outside the toilets. I finish my business and meet him outside the loos. Just as we get to the table one of my fave songs come on R Kelly Vibe so me Shay Kerry and Jason head to the dance floor for a dance. After about half hour of dancing we all headed back to the table to get a drink. On the way there a guy grabbed my arm and pulled me to him "hey beautful haven't seen you here before " he said. "it's my first time here"I said by this time I'm starting to feel uneasy about being so close to him and he still hasn't let go of my arm yet. I can smell the alcohol on him strong he's in his early 20s he has dark brown hair that's shaved around the sides a blue eyes a straight nose and a strong jawline he is really good looking. But something about him makes the hairs on the back of my neck stand on end and not in a good way either. I didnt find out his name I just wanted to get away from him and get back to my mates. Shay saw me and came over I have never been so releived to see her. Shay drags me away but the guy says to me maybe I will see you later which sends a shiver down my spine .
I had to go to the loo so I told Shay and Kel where I was going and said I would be back in a minute
As I made my way to the toilet I felt someone watching me. I thought nothing of it after all it is a night club . When I came out of the toilets creepy guy from earlier was waiting outside the toilets for me . He tried to talk to me but couldnt get any words out cuz he was so drunk so I just walked past him and off to my table but getting there it was deserted I checked the dance floor and nobody out of my mate were there wandering where they were so I made my way outside the club. I couldn't phone them like today because only business men had mobile phones in those days so I started walking to the tai rank which was round the corner from the club. As I walked past an alley someone grabbed me from behind and dragged into the alley. I remember his hands clawing at my dress while his other hand is around my mouth to stop me from screaming. He's still behind me dragging me into the dark alley. I remember struggling trying to get free but he was too strong nod had me too tight I'm trying to kick and scream but it is no use he's hold is strong. We've reached a dead end and it's completely black.
His hands were all over me he's pushed me up against the wall I'm still trying to fight he has me around the throat and he is squeezing and squeezing god I can see black spots in front of my eyes just before I've passed out he let's go I'm gaping for air so I've sunk to the floor with my back against the wall suddenly he has grabbed me by the hair
