Finding Grace

Chapter One

~Jason~

"Who are you?" Grace asks me.

I feel like I have been punched in the stomach.

"Grace... It's me, Jason." I try to make her remember me.

"My name is Meredith Grace. And I don't know anyone named Jason." She says confused.

"You have to remember me!" I raise my voice a little, feeling panicked.

I try to grab her hand again but she recoils like I have a disease.

"Nurse!" She yells.

She looks at me like I'm crazy.

A second later a nurse walks in.

"How may I help you Mrs. Collins?" She asks

"Please remove this man, I don't know him and he is freaking me out." She tells the nurse.

"Sir, please exit the room." The nurse says, eying me.

I sigh and hesitantly walk out of the room.

I could feel Grace's eyes boring into my back as I walked away.

I drive home and quickly pull into the drive way.

I cut the engine and slam the door shut.

It rocks the car.

I stalk into the house feeling rage boiling deep inside.

I go into the music room to write.

I walk in and glance at Grace's piano.

There sits that book.

I sit down at the piano and slowly flip through the book.

I've read most of these before.

I stop, I see one I haven't seen before.

The handwriting is messy and it looks hurried.

I struggle to read it.

(Verse one)

I'm just a sad girl with a broken mind,

and you are a beautiful boy, a one of a kind.

I'm sorry I'm so much trouble in the middle of the night, it's just the hardest time to fight.

It kills me, all that I put you through, most the time I feel like I don't deserve you.

(Chorus)

But when I thought things were going to be okay, you left me in the dust.

Honestly, if I were you, I'd leave too.

You said you loved me but it doesn't feel so true.

(Verse two)

You would wipe away my tears when I woke at night.

You'd hold me close and say "you're safe now."

You'd fight the monsters inside of me.

(Chorus)

But when I thought things were going to be okay, you left me in the dust.

Honestly, if I were you, I'd leave too.

You said you loved me but it doesn't feel so true.

I drop the book.

This is about me.

I run to our room, I know she kept a diary but the question is to as where she hid it.

I search her pillow case and purse.

I look through all her drawers.

Then I check the sock drawer, and I find it.

I scroll to the most recent thing she wrote.

Maybe you're trying break it apart

Or just trying to mess with my heart

But I'm not mad

In fact I'm just plain sad that its ending

My whole life is now just descending

You're coursing through my bones

But your false love is Making them feel like stone

All its weight is pulling me down

I realize I'm about to drown

Its like I'm being punished for my love

I just wanna grab you and give you a shove

I want you out of my life forever

I never want to see you whatsoever

Oh i hate life

Because i still love you

But you're no good for me

I should have realized your love was a clue

It's such a mental strife

I wish you were never here

So You would have never caused a tear

Now you must live with what you've done

And let me tell you its not going to be fun

Because i still love you

But you're never around

So don't you see

You're just no good for me

I feel weak and back up to the bed.

I sit on the edge of the bed and stare at the words in front of me.

Tears fill my eyes and everything blurs.

"GOD WHY?" I scream.

I stand up and pace around the room.

I punch the wall, leaving a mark.

I collapse onto the bed and sob into my pillow.

I lean over and grab one of her shirts from the floor.

I hold it gently in my hands, the smell of vanilla floating up to my nose.

I roll up into a ball, keeping her shirt in my hands.

After awhile everything just goes black