Freshman (high school)

Welcome to the struggle

I knew I couldn't trust her.......why did I?...

~Last week~

I still like Centia, even how much I try to get over her there is no used. I try so hard to get over her, I try and try somehow I make it worse for myself. Liking someone that doesn't like you back isn't easy, it will never be easy either. Liking someone like this takes to much over your energy and it's unhealthy. I've learned that from Yuseon...she always knows what to say.

Monday at lunch is when I told my friend Solbin and her friend Jiyong that I liked Centia.

Solbin
This is Solbin, I've been going to school with her since 7th grade. She has a lot of respect and admiration for anyone plus herself. She will always be there if someone is in need of help or just if someone needs comforting. She's also Jiyeon's "best friend"; So Jiyeon says.

Jiyong
Jiyeon and I have been going to school together since first grade, we were even best friends until 5th grade. I'm definitely not on good terms with her especially now. She knows how to get herself out of things. She knows how to bring people down and still not get noticed. Wherever she is, there's drama. She even got in a couple fights but won none of them. All I can say she can about you behind your back then smile up in your face.

        "I know she's really cute I mean we used to like her, but not anymore. I wouldn't do that to you, we wouldn't do that to you." Solbin had said with a reassuring smile. I nod with a smile "Thank you, just know she doesn't like me...But I can't stop liking her." I sighed and looked down. Jiyeon looked at me with a smile "Don't worry, we'll try to get you guys together." She said as she put her hand on my shoulder. I shook my head "no, you don't have to. There is no changing her mind if she doesn't like me, she doesn't like me." I said crossing my arms leaning back a little. "No, no, no, you guys will get together and I'll make sure of it." Jiyeon said as she patted my back. I awkwardly smiled and nodded "whatever you say." Solbin looked at her phone, well I should go back to class before the teacher finds out I doubled lunched." Me and Jiyeon both nod "I'll walk you then." Jiyeon said as she latched her arm onto Solbin's arm. "bye Lisa" Solbin gave me a hug then they both left and I went back to my group.

~7th period~
Dana, Centia, and I had taken our seats. Centia had then turned around to me as I was taking my stuff out. "Your friend is cute, the little one." "Solbin?" I had asked them she shook her head. "Your other friend." I was confused until I thought of Jiyeon. "Jiyeon?" I mean she isn't my friend but she's was the only other little girl. She smiles and nods "Yeah, Yeah her." I just nod and continued getting out my stuff.

        ~8th period~

It was almost the end of class and I had got a notification on my phone.

    I had unlocked my phone and it's from Solbin.

The angel👼
Lisa, I need to talk to you
 
                                                                          Me
I do too...
The angel👼
Go to the bathroom right now
                                                                          Me
K, just give me a minute
The angel👼
Kk, hurry tho

I had packed my stuff up quickly and put up my hand. "Mr. Lee, May I go to the bathroom?" He had noded "Just take your stuff" and grabbed my stuff and started walking to the bathroom.

I had got to the bathroom room and I had seen someone, but when they looked up I flinched. I then got a good look and it was Solbin. "Shit, you Fucken scared me." She giggles "Sorry" I crossed rolled my eyes with a giggle as well. "So you want to tell me first or do I?" She asked me "you can tell me first, go ahead." "well Jiyeon likes Centia, but she said she won't try anything though and she'll back off." I know that's a lie, but what can I do? "oh, ok. Anyway, Centia thinks she is cute." Solbin leaned back against the wall. "Jiyeon? Don't worry Lisa. Like I said she said she'll back off." I just nod and just in that time, the bell had rung. We both said goodbye and left our separate ways.

~1week & 2days later~

Jiyeon came to our table "So you're not talking to me?" I shook my head "Why are you mad at me?" I got annoyed she said it in front of me. I got up from my seat cocking my head to the side "Don't act like you don't know." I felt my fist closing as she walked away. "Lisa, you ok?" Dana asked me and I nod. "she made a scene." Hari said as she shook her head. Yuseon, Minho & Cheolmin had their earphones and we're busy on the phones. Centia was with her other friends somewhere..I think.

~A few minutes later~

Jina and Jiwon looked behind me and sighed. "Lisa please don't turn around." they both said at the same time. Dana & I didn't hesitate to turn around, I regretted it so bad. Centia was with Jiyeon... Dana patted my back. "It's fine, I need to learn to control my feels anyway." obviously I wasn't fine, I'm never fine.

~7th period~

Centia turned around once we had time to talk. "Lisa, why do you hate Jiyeon so much?" I just rolled my eyes "If you only knew Centia." I shook my in disappointment. "Tell me" she kept asking me. "you don't know her. May I remind you, I went to school with her ever since I was little." she sighed "That's what I'm trying to do, get to know her. People can change. What can make you forgive her?" I cocked my head to the side, I was stressing. "Just don't bring her up, ok?" she looked down then back up at me. "I need to tell you something tho..." I inhale "What is it?" she hesitated at first but then she spoke. "Me and Jiyeon are dating." It hit me, but I didn't show it. "Oh, awesome" I put a thumbs up as I nod. "Look I know you're not ok with this, but I just want you to like her. I care about you and since it bothers you, it's bothering me that it's bothering you." The bell had rung for the next class so I started packing my stuff. "Well, you don't have to worry about me, ok?" We both put our bags on and walk out together. "Lisa" she whined. "I'm not worth your time, go be happy with her ok. Don't worry about me." I then walked away.

Things are about to get worst....

Welcome to the struggle Lisa