Freshman (high school)

Train|4

"Lisa...I'm sorry. I'm really sorry, about what I said...I was just so mad at you, I just didn't care about what I said to you." I sigh and looked down "I'm sorry too, it's my fault anyway. I was just mad and just worried because of the past so I acted like that." I scratch the back of my neck. "It's ok, but you acted so childishly though." "It wasn't only me though that's for sure; we can both admit we both were acting childish." She sighed and didn't say anything, then that's when Dana walked over. "Heyyyyyyy, did you guys finish?" Centia and I look at each other then shook our head. "Can we see yours?" Dana nodded and went to go get her notebook. "I mean....so we're good?" I looked at her with a slight smile and a nod as Dana came back. She gave her notebook to us. Centia and I kept laughing, just us just being us again. I'm just glad I got my best friend back.

                       ~~ the next week~~

  Day by day I always got glares from Jiyong when she was with Centia. After a few days, I decided not to care at all, I just wanted Centia to be happy. After a while my mind started to wonder off, I didn't really think of her the way I did. Yeah, there is still something there; but not as much. Someone else was on my mind, but I knew she was out of my league...Yoojung. The girl who had a crush on for 3 years, the girl who probably knows as "That one weird girl", or she probably doesn't know me at all. Centia said that she has her cousin put me on with Yoojung, I said yeah. After a week I told her not to say anything or put me on; that I rather leave everything the way it is. The thing is I don't want to be that person waiting for the train to pass by.

Things keep happening to me...bad things. Is this Karma? Some sort of curse because of the drama? I really don't know what to think anymore. Sometimes I get bad thoughts, really bad thoughts. It hurts, my heart feels like a ball of fire burning a hole inside of me. If anything the last thing I could ever do it harm myself, but there is only one thing that I do; peal my lips. I've been doing this since 6th grade; it was like it kept me in place. People have told me to stop but I can, it's impossible.

~Thursday~

I really don't feel in the mood today, after what has been going on; no. I've been wearing my mask this whole time, but today...I forgot it. I didn't know what to do so I stayed low. I had to go to school at 7 am because I didn't want Yuseon to be on her own. It was raining, sometimes I like the rain; sometimes I don't. I run to her as I saw her sitting in front of the office. "Hey, let's go to the pit?" She asked as the stood up from the bench and I nodded. As we walked it was just our normal convo, basically, we laughed like usual. Once we got to the pit, I had told her. She listened to every word that came out of my mouth, that's the reason why I love her, it's the reason why she's my best friend. Dana, her sister,& her friend came after that. We talked for a while and then once the 2nd bell rang we left to class.

                                   ~2 period~

   I was walking to my 2nd hour and I have seen Rok Hui. She smiles at me and obviously I try to avoid her. As I was trying to past by she grabbed my wrist and pulled me back. "What's your problem?" I don't answer her "I said what. Is. Your. Problem?" She puts one of her hands on my shoulder and the other lifting my face to face her. Rokhui and I made I contact, it was like she was trying to find an answer just by looking at me. "What's up?!" Centia comes out of nowhere. I look at her then shrugged off Hokhui. "Nothing..." I say and looked down "well something is wrong" she crosses her arms "Lisaaa what's wrong?" I sigh and looked at both of them. "I'll tell you guys later..bye" I have them both hugs and left to my class.

                     ~End of the day~

   I had got a text from Rok Hui a moment ago. She had said she left early that's why she wasn't at lunch. I'm mostly glad I got to tell Centia though. I glad I can tell her everything now and not just keep it to myself. So far I had told her everything that has happened; I hope it stays that way.

(Sorry about it being so short, not much going on.)