Love (Kamisero One Shot)

Worthless

A/n

Some gore and self hate. Perhaps not good for some people who was sensitive. Suicide thinking and sadness forever. Also some bad grammar that make you want to kill yourself...you welcome.

At class

Everyone was busy chattering with each other. Some of them were busy flirting, some of them were studying and some of them were fighting. A normal day for students at class 1 A. Except for Kaminari. He sighed heavily, trying to cover his hand. His hand was wrapped with bandage. While he just sitting at his sit, someone approached him from back. He turned his head slowly so he can look at the person who was standing behind him. Oh, it's Alien girl. " Sup, Denki. Are you okay? You look you know... pretty Tired? Hehe, I guess?" Asked her politely. Kaminari looked at her with his hazy gaze. He smiled a little and replied to the question. " I'm fine... nothing serious with me...thanks for caring btw,Mina. " He said and laying his head at his table leaved the pink alien to chuckled there. Mina just sighed and breathed heavily. " Fine then. If you need help, I will always be by your side." Said her and Pat Kaminari back gently. Kaminari mumbled. Then she went away from his place. He closed his face. Something inside whispered at him that...

Are you sure you are worth it for being help? She might waste her time. She can help other than helping a person that so worthless like you. You should let your hand bleeding until you die. You call yourself a hero? Forget it. You just hurting your friend during the training and failed in the exam. What a shame. Short-circuit, so dumb. Are you sure you Worth it to entering this class? To dumb I guess. Look at you, even no girl want you. How dumb. You were a failure. A disgrace. How can you become a hero?! Forget about it. Stop your stupid dream, stupid boy. Better die.

As he silent... He looked down at his wrist and sobbed silently so,the others won't heard that he was crying....
He felt disgraced for himself... he felt shameful...he hate the way he  had become...As Aizawa entering the class, he began to sit properly and tried to hide his hand and his face. He don't want other to notice that...he was fighting with his self hate. It's harder than what he thought. He looked at Aizawa, tried to concentrate. He looked at Aizawa and he not realized what just happen to him. Suddenly, Aizawa looked at him. For the first time, Aizawa went to him and grabbed his wounded wrist roughly. He shouted in pain. Tears fell from his eyes as his wrist being grabbed more tight than before. Everyone was stared at him sadisticly. He don't like this. He was scared. " How shame. You call yourself as a hero?! What is this??? If you want to cut your wrist, better make sure you were dying!!!" Aizawa shouted at him. Kaminari tried to hold the pain as his tears just pouring out. " Wow, regret to know you, dude." Said Kirishima. Kaminari looked at Kiri. "Hmm...this must be the side effects of your quirk,right? At first you tried to kill us all but then, man...you ended up cutting yourself. What a loser" said Jirou,sarcasm. Kaminari tried to release from Aizawa grabbed as all the painful word come and hit him like a rock.

"I-i never thought you were like this, Kaminari... You were a disgrace" Said Midoriya. Bakugou stared at him and laughed. " Oh God!!! Fucking sadistic! So sadist. Man just fucking hang YOURSELF!!!" shouted him, straight to Kaminari face. Kaminari fell to the ground and stucked at the corner of the classroom. He depressed. He should be thrown from here. Yes, he should die. He useless. A dumbass. An asshole.  Then..." Deiki... I think you are not belong to this world." Kaminari pinpricks began to small. His best friend... He looked at the Raven hair boys who was standing in front of him. His body started to tremble. " N-no, Sero... Don't say that... Yo-you didn't mean it...r-right?!" Sero sighed and lowered his head. He stared at Kaminari who was not believing his word. " I mean it. Now you can die in peace." Everyone laughed and leaved him alone in the darkness.

Kaminari stared at his wounded wrist. It's continued to bleed. He laughed and laughed like a mad man. He hugged his body and laughed in pain." I need to die!!! I'm so worthless!!! Asshole, dumbass, stupid, useless , disgrace , embarrassment , and a self hate PSYCHOPATH!!!" His smiled began to disappear and continue with tears falling from his eyes... " Why am i exist in the first place???". He cried and cried heavily until someone shook his body. " Kaminari...hey..." He heard a whispered. A lot of voice...

" Kaminari, wake up!" He looked around. " Kaminari!!! Don't do this!!!" He looked at the other way. But what he saw was a void. A dark void. He felt sorrow and despair." Kaminari!!! Please...open your eyes!!!" He ran around the void. Nothing he can do. He was trapped into his own self hate... Kaminari began to sob. As a voice of his classmates kept calling him to wake up. " I can't !!! I'm to weak. I can't help myself. I can't do this..." He shouted in dismay. He fall down. He felt guilty.  " I don't know guys... I can't make it...you guys must be hating me for being such a pain in the ass..." He don't know what just happen, suddenly he felt someone was touching his face. He couldn't see the figure true form. But he recognized that voice. " Denki, all of us were waiting for you. Please come back..." As the voice disappeared, Kaminari gasped in shocked. He coughed heavily and opened his eyes slowly. He looked around. Where am I? He thought. He felt pain on his neck. Now he remembered... He hang himself in the room and everything turned to black. He looked at his wrist. His hand had been connected with a tube that transfer a blood supplies to him. He grabbed his hair slowly and  sighed heavily. He looked around. He felt lonely.

His coil snapped. His tears falling from his eyes. He began to sob. Then he heard a lot of noise came from the outside. As the door were opened...

" I know! It's dumb right???" Said Sero. " Pretty sure, bud- Kami?!" Gasped Kirishima looked at the blond hair who was crying on the bed. All of his classmate were coming. Kaminari was speechless same as goes to his classmate. Kaminari opened his arm and smiled. " G-guys! I'm back!!!" Everyone began to cry,even Bakugou and Todoroki tried to hold their tears. Uraraka and Midoriya ran and hugged Kaminari who was crying a happy tears.

" W-we thought for not seeing you again!!!"cried Uraraka. She hugged Kaminari who was lying at the bed. " W-why are you attempting suicide?!" Shouted Midoriya in dismay, crying in Kaminari arm. Kaminari cried as his friends cried in his embrace."  I'm s-sorry! I'm to weak. I was a messed. I felt useless. I was to dumb for this world and not worth it..." "Stupid..." Kaminari looked at the voice. It's Sero. Sero face was red. His eyes were holding some tears before it falling at any moment. " Don't you know how much you effecting us?! Without you, everything won't be the same! Without you, Jirou won't have someone that who love to flirt with her! Without you, Mineta won't have a same head friend! Without you I-i...I completely lose someone that I love!!!"  Cried Sero. The other also nodded. Kaminari looked at the other. " You...care about me? You really...care about me?" Sero walked to Kaminari and pressed his lips to the small blond guy , making him blushing madly. " I love you, Denki... All of us, love you. Even Bakugou crying."

" Shut up!!! Something entering my fucking badass eyes!" Kaminari hugged Sero back , he breathing slowly... " Thank you...thank you so much... It felt just like all the chain finally...gone..." Sero looked at Kaminari who looked very exchausted. Sero tried to hold his tears.He layed Kaminari at the bed gently. Kaminari coughed heavily and gave his best smiled to his classmate. He breathed heavily with tears still pouring from his eyes. He looked at them.

" I'm going to... survive... You guys...save me at the right time... I love all you...too..." As his voice slowly began to  disappear in the air together with a sound of people crying for him...