If I Die.

~Chapter 1~

I wish I had a boyfriend I wish he lived with me so that whenever I needed or wanted him he'd be here, so he could stare and smile at me like boys do in movies, he would whisper in my ear liane I love you I really bloody do but those were just fantasies they always were.

I Sit Up and switch on my lamp I get up and sit by the window. I look at the sky its a funny color red and charcoal its like the day is bleeding out I can smell the sausages Saturday night is always sausages. Dad'll have the lottery ticket and al will have chosen all the numbers and they'll watch tv and eat after that al would take a shower and go to. bed and dad'll smoke and drink until he thinks he should go to sleep.

He came to see me in the morning he opened the curtains and told me to admire the sky noticing I didn't reply and made no move to he said "if you want talk about it how can I help you"!

then he came over and sat on my bed I held my breathe if you do it long enough white lights dance in front of your eyes he reached over massaging my scalp

"breathe, liane" he wispered

instead I grabbed my blanket and pulled it over my head he went away then. now he's downstairs frying sausages I can hear the slush of the gravy I'm not sure how but nothing suprises me anymore I can hear al unzipping his coat back from buying mustard

"hang your coat and see if Liane wants anything" I hear my dad say

I can hear al as he leaps up the stairs I pretend to be asleep which doesn't stop him he leans over and whispers "I don't care if you never want to talk to me again"

I open one eye to see to blue eyes

"I knew you were faking" he grins wide

"dad says do u want blackberries "

"no"

"what should I tell him"

"tell him I want a baby elephant "

he laughs "I'm gonna miss you he says" and leaves me with an open door and the draught from the stairs.

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its a bit boring :/ but it's just the beginning hope u like it 10 votes for next chapter :)btw she has cancer..