Drug Dealer.

2.:(JUST DERECK'S THOUGHTS)

||Dereck||

i have my own place across the town but you see Sebrina needs help she needs a man who can stay home to watch her child and a man who can love her im not a man but im close enough i think see my mom is a teacher and she knows Sebrina thats houw i know her i could tell she was struggling i mean yes im not single so i t wowuld be weird for her but hey atleast im helping her out right so im not the bad guy but anyways she's at school right now and im here alon i told her i had a girl friend she said i bring her here but not in the living room bathroom kitchen livingroom or the basement ... i get it since she's my girl we should have sex in my room well Sebrina's room but you know what i mean honestly i didnt want my girl here i wanted to be alone maybe have a couple friends over but thats is ya heard .... we gone play some games talk about hoes and money like we usually do .. see hoes excuse me i mean girls fall for me because i seem nice but let me tell you something i am not nice my momma may be nice my daddy might be nice but i aint nice not at all not one bit people call me a thug i just call it being who i am i cant help that i'm not emotional like some of these niggas out here and i can't help that i rude as hell thats why i cant keep relationships only one girl was able to keep me down her name was Oriana i loved thats girl we started dating when we were 13 until she died in a car accident when she was 17 i was 17 too ... that was a year ago and i thought since i couldnt have love nobody i dated couldnt either i was soo hurt as to why her father would do something as sick as that ... i mean really you would kill your daughter cause she doesnt want to listen to your decision ... i visit her grave almost everyday i didnt go today i knew i was gonna cry today is her birthday maybe i should go before the guys get here (...) do i'm at her grave i bought balloons and a fake candle witht he fake fire cause you know i dont want to set the grave yard on fire... i sung happy birthday to her wished her a happy 18th birtday in heaven and told her to watch over me make sure i find the right girl to hold me down i was crying like she just dies today it was so heartbreaking i left out of the there went home to see my homies waiting by the door they saw my tears and figured i went to see her i sucked up my feelings and we played the game thats when Sebrina walked in went upstairs took a nap came back downstais to get her daughterfrom daycare and came back with that little boy again i think his name is Justice or whatever but after that she got them a bath helped them with homework cooked dinner we ate oh the boys were gone by then ... she cleaned did her homework checked up on me and went to sleep isnt she thoughtful? well she is to me i was thinking about telling her that i was just trying to help her and that i already had my life together but that would sound way to rude so i decided that tomorrow i was gonna tell her that since she barely got money to keep a roof over her head i wanted to help is that mean...? well now that i think about it ...it kinda is ill just wait maybe i should let her figure out herself she would be so mad cause she doesnt need a man to do what a woman can do by herself! she's kind stubborn if you think about it but ayee that aint my problem im not marrying the bitch im just helping her beok ass out shit! .. oops .. what i meant was i'm not fiina put a ring on her i gotta girlfriend im just helping out someone who is in need .. better? i need to take a ediqute class or some shizz ... but anyways you know who i am i know who you are wait i dont know you ... but nice to me you reader anyways you heard my sneaky plan not so sneaky one you think about it i mean i got money she barely got money so im helping her i do remember seeing her sell drugs i dont thinks eh saw me is she a drug dealer ... that would be sad she's 17 has a 2 year old daughter still in school nice person and has a different side at night selling dope thats crazy if she is im bouncing shit she can buy her own shit i just thought i would help her pay her bills maybe she smoke weed .. either way its a bad influence on her daughter ... she's so secretive maybe she gay??? or maybe she work with the federal aganet and said yes to me so she can lock me up .. wait nahh what the fuck* am i talking bout ... i mean then again you never know her daughter could be apart of the FBI shiddd we dont know i hope she aint cause if so lawddd i wasnt readyyyy .... anyways why am i still thinking about her i need to be thinking about my fine ass girlfriend nicki ... which btw she gotta ass like minaj just saying she bad bruh no lie she not all natural with the hair but she got some long hair ... she got some awedom "good good" have a nigga falling in love not reall i cheated on her like three times she keep coming back shes my ride die bitch yea i said bitch ... she calls her self the baddest bitch sooo she a bitch right ... i mean forgive me but imma call her up tomorrow i gotta get under them panties tomorrow she been avoiding me for the past week she kepp on imma drop her sorry ass just saying i dont mean to be mean or anything but seriously you wasting my fucking time but anyways peace