The Get Away

Letter

August 13, 2013

Dear Family,

I'm sorry, I couldn't do it anymore. Lying to you was too much.

I never wanted to go to Uni, and study to become anything. Because spending anymore time stuck between walls learning about things that don't interest me, to have a job in a field that I won't have for longer than 10 years.

Being in this small town my whole life has trapped me. I have been forced to be friends with people who I don't like. To never being able to visit my real friends because they live too far away.

What about the fact that the first guy that I could actually call my boyfriend was when I was 16, and we dated for 4 months, if not longer, before I was able to meet him in person. And here's the thing mum, dad, brother, sister, or whoever it is that is reading this. This guy, he was my life, I meet him on the internet, I fell in love with him as he fell in love with me. I'm 18 today, which means it's our two year anniversary. That is were I ran off too. I'm with him. In Alexandra. A place that is only 3 hours away from home.

I'm sorry that I didn't turn out to be the perfect child that my older siblings have. I'm sorry I don't want to stay in New Zealand and live here for the rest of my life. I'm sorry that when I say I don't have a home, I mean it. Because the place where I've been brought up isn't my home. It is just a house that I have lived in.

I'll be leaving today, me. Leaving this country to go and live elsewhere in the big wide world. I'll ring you when I am settled in a place, and maybe you could come and visit me? Maybe not though, because that's fine as well.

I'm a lonely person, but I like to be alone. But I'm also a people person because I love to talk and engage. Now figure that one out family.

I'm leaving because I need to live my life the way I want to. I don't want to be stuck in the never ending time warp that society has brought upon us. Where you need to go to university to get a job, where you need to make a certain number of answers correct to determine your capability on your smartness.

Society sucks, it truly does. But I refuse to be apart of that cliche that so many people are proud to call their lives.

I love you guys lots. Now don't you forget that.

I'll go on my Facebook occasionally and post a quick post to update everyone on my whereabouts and whatnot. But I won't say where I am until I'm ready.

This I my time to break free.

And I'm going to take it.

Lots of love,

Ava

xxx