I Feel Alone. (BTS Jungkook X Male!Reader)

Chapter 11

The wind blew into my fingertips as I glided my hand in the air and ran towards the one thing in my life that made me happy; my everything, Jeon Jungkook.

As I wrapped my small figure around his muscular chest and held onto him like a koala I felt him reciprocate by hugging me and then holding me up by my thighs. He bounced me in his chest and it calmed me down as he hummed a beautiful tune that he just made up as he went.

Nothing could bring me down today because it was our 1-year anniversary. I had been waiting for such a long time to have this day so that I could give him the gift that I worked so hard on to make.

We were currently in a park doing nothing in particular except fooling around happily together. I tapped him on the shoulder as a sign to put me down. He let me down and I intertwined my hand with his hand as we skipped along the wet concrete sidewalk.

I looked down and smiled contently as I saw our hands mingled together. Upon a closer inspection, my frown began to deteriorate. It felt as if the whole world came to an abrupt stop. Were those cuts on my arm? I couldn't remember where I could have gotten that.

Suddenly, the cuts started climbing up my arm towards my neck. I breathed heavily as I tried to get away from it. I couldn't breathe and I tried desperately too as it felt as if someone was grasping every last breath from my lungs.

I looked over at Jungkook to see him not there and his nice warm figure was replaced with the cold void of air. I looked everywhere in hopelessness as I felt all the happiness I once felt suddenly drained from my body.

I could feel the loneliness and fear that I had once thought I had removed from my body reconnect its way to my mind and soul.

The cuts had started to get deeper and thicker as I felt a sheer pain run through my veins as I held tightly onto my body to vanquish the pain. I felt myself disappear into the darkness and become the cold void that I felt in my heart.

Tears streamed down my face and I tried to scream and cry for help but nothing would come out of my mouth except small whimpers that no one would hear.

I gasped for my last breathe as I shot up from my bed into the cold harsh reality of my life once again. I kept having these damn dreams of hope and happiness only to find that I will never have that little thing called love.

I looked around in the white room to see nothing but plain emptiness. The only thing that covered the emptiness was the one picture hanging on the wall that the doctors refused to take down; a picture of my lover, Jeon Jungkook.

He promised me that he would stay forever, but he died and left me. I screamed and a nurse came running in before injecting my arm with those same stupid relaxant drugs that were always given to me when I would awake from my dreams.

I let out soft whimpers as I felt my body relax without my consent. I hate my life and these nurses. Why won't they just let me die? Why can't I ever die and be done with my life?

After I seemed to calm down, the nurse left the room to leave me to my own demise. The same dream keeps coming back to me of how we first met and how he had promised me to be there forever.

It seemed like forever since I say the light of day and my body began to ache for some sort of reality from this white empty room.

I started to hear a door knock and I looked over to see him staring back at me with a creepy smile. "NO!", I screamed at the imaginary Jungkook. I knew it wasn't real but I was still afraid of it haunting my mind.

I started to sob and I felt unable to breathe once again, although this time was different. I started to black out and I felt my heart stop and all contact with the world disappear. Finally, I can be free from this world.

Before my last breath, I could hear the noises of nurses running. "He's having a panic attack." "He's going into shock!" "Get the doctor!", I could hear them yell. I looked over to see the once creepy smile turn to a happy bunny smile that I ached to see once again from the imaginary Jungkook.

It was my time to go finally. I can finally be reunited with Jungkook and forever be happy in his warm hold.

With that I thought, I happily allowed the darkness to overflow my body and take over my very existence.

Goodbye.

~The End~