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A Confession

I've waited for him for three years. I can't stop my feelings to like him. He is just so precious in my eyes. He's there in my dreams every night. I watched him from a far. Suddenly, I found out that he belongs to someone who I know her as my friend which I can call as close friend. It sucks. My feeling crushed. Hit by that pain, I taught myself to move on. The result, I just can't. I can't moving on even a bit. It literally hurts me. I got so scared to meet him eventhough no one know my feeling towards him. I took a decision not to reveal it to anyone or else something bad will happen. I kept it as a secret for two years and a half till I found some babes whom I trust to keep it as a secret. Come the time where we started a conversation. I was brave enough eversince I was tired seing others happy on my sadness. I go and confessed to him. All I got was a friendzone. I was so broken. It hurts me. It hurts my feeling. I tried to keep the pain. I tried to forget what happened. But, it was no use.

Till I found someone who slowly help me to move on from him without he notices. Unfortunetely, he belongs to someone:) I don't know what should I do:( I know its my fault and I can't stop blaming myself from getting close to someone's:'(